Babel Novel
65
I wish I could say I’d lost myself and that’s why I did it. But as the orgasm overtook me, my brain was almost hyper aware. Repeating the same words over and over. My brother is cumming inside me. He’s filling me with his fertile seed. My little bro, my love. We’re making our baby. He’s putting a baby inside his big sis. Fuck it feels so GOOD.
I dropped back to the ground — my skull hit the floor with a loud crack. I could barely feel it through the endorphins. Instead, I kicked out my legs as long as they could go. Drew out my orgasm even further. Shaking and shivering under my brother.
Kevin’s own orgasm slowly receded. I felt his cock soften. How could something so massive, so present, simply melt away? It was weird and oddly wonderful. The flow of his hot seed turned to a trickle. Still, my brother held me tight. He kissed my forehead and my cheeks. Whispered my name like some kind of prayer.
I felt my body gradually become my own again. I kissed him back. But our passion quickly peeled away to cold hard reality. What we’d done. Kevin gave me a wary look. I nodded, resigned.
“Fuck,” he said.
“Yeah,” I said, “Fuck.”
The word was everything we needed to communicate to each other. This was so bad. Beyond terrible. Every stupid choice we’d made, all the way back to that morning when my brother had insisted that I help him with his car. They’d fallen like dominoes to bring us to this moment.Exclusive © content by N(ô)ve/l/Drama.Org.
The problem wasn’t that my brother had filled my unprotect pussy. The concern wasn’t that I was certain he’d put his baby in my womb (and I was). No. The biggest disaster of all was, I loved every second of it.
And I couldn’t wait for him to do it again.
*
I finished the school year with a solid 3. 9 GPA. Yeah, I know. I can’t decide if I’m embarrassed it wasn’t a 4. 0 or relieved it wasn’t a 3. 6 or worse. A is for accepting. All things considered, I was very much OK with how I’d done. And I was only a Junior. There was plenty of time to turn things up a notch if needed.
But that was the thing: I realized that I didn’t need it. Harvard Med is nice and all, but my brother isn’t there and that’s kind of a deal breaker these days. State has a very strong medical program, is only about a forty-minute drive away, and will take a 3. 8. In other words, I just have to keep going as I am, and I’ll be golden.
In the meantime, Kevin and I are doing our best to keep our incestuous activities quiet. Now that it’s summer and all, in some ways it’s even easier than before. Sure, Kevin’s busy with work. And unlike the university, technical school doesn’t take summers off. But we’ve got plenty of time.
One overwarm evening after dinner, my parents said we needed to talk. Kevin and I both sat on the couch, eyeing each other nervously. We couldn’t imagine what this could be about, but we were desperately worried we knew exactly what was about to go down.
My parents held each other’s hands and beamed at us from the opposing chairs. They took a deep breath. Oh God. I braced myself like I was about to get shot in the stomach.
“Your father and I wanted to tell you how proud we are of what you both are doing together,” Mom said.
You are!?
“Yes,” Dad said, “What you have certainly isn’t for everyone, but we know that it’s the right thing for you both.”
It is?!
“The way the two of you are together,” Mom said, “Honestly, it makes me jealous. I wish my brothers and I could have been the way you are.”
I tried to picture my mom getting DP’d by Uncle Pete and Uncle Nick. Actually, I could kind of see that happening.
“So, we want to make sure you know you have our full support, no matter what you decide,” Dad said.
OK. There was no way they were talking about what I thought they were talking about. Right? Either I was desperately mistaken, or we’d been dragged into some alternate dimension.
“I’m so confused,” Kevin said.
“You think you’re being clever, but it’s clear to us,” Mom said.
Oh no. It really was what I was afraid of.
“The way you both have started working together,” Dad said, “Kevin, we all know that your success lately with the garage and school has been because Jacey is helping you.”
“And Jacey,” Mom said, “Don’t think we haven’t noticed how much more easygoing you are now that Kevin’s been pitching in.”
“OH! That,” I said, “Yeah, well, I think we’ve figured out that we can learn a lot from each other.”
“Wel, l it’s wonderful to see,” Mom said.
“Seriously,” Dad said, “It’s like the two of you make the perfect human together.”
Kevin and I both shared the same shocked, scared look. About that whole ‘making a human together thing’…
“Anyway,” Kevin said, quickly standing, “I know I have a lot of studying to do. So, I’m going to get to it.”
“I’m actually going to hang out with my friend Brooke tonight,” I said, “There’s this place downtown that has live jazz.”
*
That night, when I slipped into my brother’s bedroom, I knew everything was going to be alright. Sure, we were going to have some challenges. Eventually we’d have to tell our parents what was going on. But for the moment, we would be OK. Our future may have seemed uncertain, but it was perfectly clear to me.
We made love under the covers as quietly as we could. My brother’s body undulating under me. His mouth on my little, needy nipples. My nails digging into his back.
Sex with my brother didn’t make me stupid. In fact, it was quite the opposite — I’ve become so much smarter. Life isn’t about perfection. It’s about balance. You do your best when you can, but you also need to enjoy things.
It took me a long time to learn that. But now that I know, I’m sure that everything will turn out just fine. A is for amazing, after all.
And like I said, the one thing you need to know about me is that I’m a straight-A student.