The Lycan’s Contract Mate

Arielyn

“We are not mates, I know that’s what our contract said but it is just the contract, Arielyn,”

Ken responded. I stared at him in shock. Of all the things I expected him to say after what I told him, what he ended up saying wasn’t even part of it. I didn’t even think about our contract, I haven’t even thought about that in a long time.

“I am not talking about our contract, I am talking about us being each other’s second chance mate, you felt it too, right? You know what I am saying right?”

I asked. Hoping that he would give the answer that I wanted to hear but by the look on his face, it was clear I wasn’t going to like his answer.

“I don’t know what you are talking about Arielyn, why are you being like this? We signed a contract, that’s the only reason we got together, I have never seen you as my mate, I didn’t feel anything, how would you be my mate and I don’t feel anything? You don’t have to do this, we can be together without you trying something like this, it is not very telling of you.”

He said. I opened and closed my mouth a couple of times because I was too hurt to get the words out, I hoped he was joking but with the way he was talking, it didn’t feel like a joke and the mood we were in wasn’t for jokes. It felt like a rejection all over again. it was worse than a rejection. He just called me a liar; he thinks I am making things up and lying about us being mates.

“Are you trying to say I am lying? That I don’t know what I am saying. Ken? Is that it?”

I asked. I couldn’t form a better sentence or come up with a better way to ask him the questions that were burning in my head.Published by Nôv'elD/rama.Org.

“I am saying you are missing everything up, we don’t have to be mates to be together, we have been fine so far, no need to push the second chance mate narrative because you and I both know that’s not it,”

I felt a sharp pain in my heart at his words, not just me, Ae too felt it, and she recoiled in sadness, I couldn’t take it anymore, I got out of bed and almost fell because I lost my balance, he caught me but I pushed him away from me and pointed at him.

“Don’t you come near me,”

I let out.

“Arielyn, please don’t do this, don’t make us fight for something like that, if we were mates, I would feel it too, I didn’t feel anything. I had a mate before and I felt the pull the moment we met, it is not the same with you but I still care about you, let’s just forget the mate thing and stay the way we are right now, I don’t mean now, I mean before you brought all these up; go back to the way we were two days ago,”

He cared about me? He wanted us to go back to the way we were, he wanted me to forget about us being mates, and he didn’t believe what I told him. Those were the thoughts that ran through my head as I stared at him wariedly It was hard not to be hurt, I didn’t want us to remain the way we were, I wanted him to care, I wanted his love, I wanted him to acknowledge me as his mate, I refuse to settle for less when that’s all I have been getting all my life.

“You called me a liar, Ken, you think I am making things up but I know what I felt and what I still feel, I know my mate but I don’t know why you are not feeling it too or maybe you just don’t want me to be that person,”

I said, my heart breaking with each word I said. the last part of what I didn’t say to him, the thought that lingered in my mind. He didn’t want to be with me for long, he didn’t want to accept we were mates because he had no plans of continuing our relationship once he got what he wanted from me. It hurt seeing that that’s all I meant to him and that’s all I will ever mean to him. I couldn’t stand in his presence anymore.

“Can you leave? I want to be alone,”

I said.

“No, not until you come back to your senses,”

Now he was calling me senseless.

“Stay,”

I said and I walked out of the room, I didn’t want him to follow me and the only place he would not go into was Raul’s room so I walked to Raul’s door and thankfully, it was open. Raul looked up when I entered.

“Are you okay?”

He asked. I shook my head. He understood immediately even though he was young, I was sure he could understand how I felt right now.

“Can I stay here? I don’t want to talk to Kendrix,”

I told him as tears welled up in my eyes, he nodded without another word and pointed at his bed, and I went to lay down. Kendrix came to the door, I didn’t look up so I didn’t know how Raul handled it but he didn’t come in. I laid on the bed crying my eyes out. this was worse than when Jordan had rejected me in front of a crowd. This pierced my heart because I really loved and cared for Kendrix. He thought I was lying, he thought I was making things up. how could he not feel what I felt, what I still feel, there is no way I made a mistake, no way I missed it, he just didn’t want to acknowledge it, he was sticking to the contract we signed and I was the only one who read too much into everything, the one who fell for him and also the one who felt our mate bond. He didn’t feel any of those things and he chose to ignore our mate bond.

Even though it hurt so much, I was so used to being rejected, and like before, even while still grieving, I was already thinking of ways to cope with not being wanted. I made up my mind to stick around until he got what he wanted from Dad. I didn’t want things to go bad for him and my dad, I would still be around and after it is done, I will leave.

“Arielyn, if you need anything call me, I will be in the guest room,”

Raul said. I felt bad for practically chasing him out of his room. I lifted my tears-filled eyes.

“I am sorry I came here, I shouldn’t have,”

I told him but he shook his head.

“He won’t come in here, you can stay here, don’t feel sorry, and don’t cry too much. I don’t know what happened but don’t let anyone make you break down,”

He advised. He was so young yet he had such a good sense.

“Thank you,”

I said and he left. Once I was alone, I laid back on Raul’s bed, my mind going over what had happened with Ken. Just thinking about it brought even more pain to me. I didn’t know how I would be able to face in the morning and hoped he would be out of the house before I woke up. Before I moved out, I wanted our meet-ups to be as limited as possible. Yes, I planned on moving out. I couldn’t bear the thought of living with anyone who didn’t want me. Time to get my life in order and move on. I made up my mind to wait long enough for him to be done with the deal with my dad, it won’t be long because he already got the Orient. I just have to look for a new place, my own place because I had no plans of moving back to my dad’s house. Get an apartment, get a job, and learn to live on my own again, it would hurt but it won’t be as hard as it had been for me eight years ago because this time, I am older.