#2 Chapter 88
“You’d be a better mother than me.” Mom said to me. I just smiled again and turned to the suitcases.
“Even if I deprived my son of a father?” I said more.
“Son, you didn’t deprive your son of the father. It’s not your fault for not knowing his father. The bad thing about that is if you know the father is there, but you chose to keep him a secret here.” Mom said so I’ll bow down.
I’m a bad mother.
“Mom, what if I know the child’s father and then I choose not to tell him because I don’t want to tie him in a relationship he doesn’t want and I also don’t want my son to live in a forced family?”
“What do you mean?”
I turned to dad when he suddenly interrupted the conversation.
“Do you know your son’s father?” Said papa.
I immediately shook my head.
“No. I’m just asking, just in case I meet my son’s father.” I refuse immediately.
“What are you thinking, kid. You’ve overthinked. That’s bad for the baby.” Mama said and stroked my hair.
“Am I a bad mother?” I asked again because even I didn’t know if my decision not to tell Kent the truth was right.
“Hmm, how can you call your son a man in a forced family in case you told his father about him?”
“Because he doesn’t love me and he loves someone else but he has to choose a responsibility.”
“Responsibility? For me, that reason sucks. First of all, a father’s right to know about his child. Even if you don’t want to tell him, it’s your responsibility to let him know about your child because he’s the father. Sometimes, It hurts the father not to know the son. If the time comes when you know the father of your son, I hope you will not deprive him of being the father of your son. ”
“But maybe he doesn’t love my son?”
My stupid. Kent wasn’t like that when I met him.
“Second, who knows that maybe your son will change how he feels.” Mom said so I looked at her.
Will her love change?
If I happen to tell about our son, will he love me?
No! I will not use my son to get his love.
“Will I use my son?”
“No, that’s not what I mean. I mean he might prefer your son because for him being a father weighs more than being a lover to a woman.” Sabi is mom.
I was dumbfounded for a moment.
“The selfish of such a decision son.” Mom said so I looked at him again.
“Selfish?”
“Yes. First you deprived the father of your son and you deprived his father to adopt him.” Mom said so I bowed.
I know that ma. I-I don’t really have the courage to say that to him.
I looked up at mama and smiled.
“I’ll bare that in my mind.” I just said that even though I just ignored what mama said to me in the other ear.
Sorry ma, but I’d rather be selfish if this is the best for him and for my child. Besides, I can also be the father of my child. I will not make him feel the absence of a father because I myself will be his father.
“May we?” Hanz said and grabbed my suitcase.
“Bye ma …” I said and kissed mama’s cheek.
“Bye …” I also said to papa and returned to his cheek.
“Be careful there son ah. Always call me and let me know about my grandson. Don’t stress don and when you’re in pain call Hanz then when —”
“Mom, I already know that. How many times have you reminded me of that.” I’m going to break up with mama because she’s already a strange reminder to me. Praning si mama.
“We’re leaving.” I said and walked away.
I waved to mama and left.
We were already on the plane and we were just waiting to fly.
When I felt that we were moving I looked out the window.
Everything will be fine. I believe that.
………..
Nikita’s POV,
“Witch!”
I immediately went downstairs when I heard Hanz’s voice below.
I’m living in Hanz’s house now. Hanz forced me to live in his house because he was worried about my pregnancy.Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!
I wouldn’t have agreed because even if it’s my bestfriend, he’s still a man and I’m a woman and it’s not nice to see a man and woman living on the same roof. Pero talagang mapilit siya and he always has this reason …
‘Do you want to ruin your son? You can’t be alone, especially when you think you’re young. ‘
That’s what he always told me and he really kept it away from me. We’re still fighting because he’s too desi.
“Yes? What can I do for you Sir Wizard?” I said as I got down.