Not Your Mate Anymore

Chapter 2 What to believe

I walked out of my room, heading for the stairs when our house helper, Carol stopped in front of me. Carol had been our cook and cleaner since before I was born. She even helped raise my dad.

Carol was my father's Ralyn. She was an honest and caring lady but disrespect her and feel a mothers wrath.

"Good morning little moon. I'm so happy to see you out of bed” Carol said as she grabbed my hand.

"Morning Aunt Carol. I had to get up at some point right? You can thank Josie and mom for that.” I only responded to her because I was raised it is polite to do so. I had no energy to make conversation but its Auntie Carol.

"I found this in your mother's study while I was cleaning in there today. Wear it, it will give you the strength it gave her when this pack didn't recognize her as Christopher's mate. It was a gift from your father.” Carol put a golden cross with an infinity symbol in my hand. It was simple yet beautiful.

In that moment, I remembered my mothers words and hugged Carol. My mother might be gone but her ghost sure knows when to show up I thought

to myself.

"Thank you Carol. Three generations of females in this family, the pack giving us problems. Only this time I am a full blooded wolf and still they take my mate from me." I say trying hold back the tears.

I chuckle nervously looking anywhere but at Aunt Carol and when my eyes land on her she looks at me with pity.

"Not you too Auntie. Don't give me that look. I don't need you looking at me like that. I can't stand it.” I cracked. A single tear drop escaped from eye.

"I'm sorry little moon. I've just been around to see your grandmother get the ill treatment and then your mother. It breaks my heart seeing it happen to you when our alpha often said how happy he was that you were mated to his son." Carol said.

"If we keep talking about this, I'll burst and we don't want Josey to kill you for ruining my face now. Let me get this over with. Can you help me with this?” I handed her the necklace to put around my hair as I lifted my hair.

"There. Now you look just like her.” Carol said with a twinkle in her eye as she wiped the stray tear from my face.

"She was a very beautiful woman that Kimberly”

"Thank you Aunt Carol. It is beautiful” I gave her one last hug.

"All your bags are packed and loaded into the car. I hope you use the time to find the strength your mother found even when she was in pain. She is after all your mother, you should take after her.” Carol pointed out.

"I will. See you soon Auntie. I will send pictures” I hold her hand again and kiss her cheek. "Bye old moon" I giggled because I haven't called her that in ages. That was what I called her when she called me little moon. It only made sense. I shake my head laughing as I descend the stairs sniffing the air for my mates scent. I followed it all the way to my dad's office. I knocked 3 times signaling to my dad my arrival in case he didn't catch my scent which is impossible but it's happened once.

"Come in Sabrina’ my dad calls out in his ‘all business tone’.

I take one final deep breath, roll my shoulders and then I walk in. First I notice Josey sitting on our kiddie couch to my left and Cj standing next to her. Straight ahead I see my father sitting in his chair and mom standing next to him rubbing his arm in circles. It must be hard for him with me locking myself up in my room and my mate looking just peachy. No weight loss, not an eye bag in sight. My mate, to my right, his eyes turning dark when they reached my chest. Men.

The alpha seated right across the table from my dad. He turned around to give me a smile, I didn't return it. I had no intention to exchange sweet words and forced smiles with my betrayers. I was here out of respect for my dad.

"Alpha Charley, Percy.” I give them each a nod in their direction as I make my way to greet my father and kiss him on the cheek.

"You look beautiful Sab.” Percy said as if questioning himself, still giving me the once over again.

"Yes Sabrina. You look like you're going somewhere. " the alpha said sending a glare to his son.

I chose to ignore Percy. I would ignore him because if I didn't tears will fall and I will not cry in front of him. I won't show him what he's doing to my heart.

"Yes Alpha Charley. I'm visiting my grandfather for a few weeks, maybe months. Would be nice to go get some fresh air, away from here." I say..

Percy's scent was driving Athena mad and she kept trying to take control and mark Percy in our human skin but we couldn't show them that. I was also fighting the urge to fall to my knees and cry in front of Percy. I looked at my father pleading him to let me go as my eyes flicked colors showing him my internal battle.

"I did not know about this but I think it is an excellent idea. It will allow you the time to fight the bond while Percy spends time with his chosen mate.” Alpha Charley said.

A growl came from Percy's side and we all looked at him but he was looking at me. His eyes looked glassy and for a minute maybe even a second I thought he felt a fraction of what I was feeling. He closed his eyes and when he opened them he had a calm manner to him.

"I agree with father. I can't have my wolf fighting me on this. See Sabrina, my wolf recognizes you as his mate but I don't. I think it's best you allow my wolf the time to get to know Ralyn without your scent lingering around.” Percy spat out. Nôvel/Dr(a)ma.Org - Content owner.

My brother and father growled. Loud gasps from my sister and Remi were heard too. I think something was even dropped right outside my father's office door. I can't blame them really. If I wasn't me, I'd also

want to be a fly in the wall of my dad's office . I knew then if my heart wasn't broken, it broke right there. On the floor for all of them to see. Shattered. Stepped on. Crushed to even tinier pieces. This is that subtle rejection. His human side rejecting me.

My face kept a calm tone. Void of any emotion just as my dad trained me when facing an enemy, not to show that I was in pain. I used that training

now because I needed to. Percy was not going to embarrass me in front of my father, my mom and my siblings. He will not win. I straightened my posture and cleared my throat because I knew if I didn't do that they'd be able to hear the crack in my voice. I didn't trust myself not to break down.

"That makes sense.." I said. “I will be gone for some time, giving you the much needed time to bond with your chosen mate. I will be back for your ceremony and I expect you to reject me before then, which I will gladly accept.’ I said looking at Percy who looked alarmed like he wasn't expecting me to say that.

"Alpha Charley, I'm sure you understand that I need him to reject me so I won't feel it when he consummates their union with his chosen mate. I have done no wrong to this pack to receive such treatment and if he could reject me now even.." looking back at Percy, "Wouldn't it be so much easier to bond with Ralyn without your wolf turning on you?" I said to Percy with a stern look on my face.

"Sabrina, you do understand if Percy rejects you, his wolf will turn on him regardless.” Alpha said to me.

I scoff. Looking back at the alpha, "his wolf won't even mark her if he doesn't reject me. You are all aware they need to be in wolf form to complete the mating. If his wolf sees me as his mate, what makes you think he will gladly mark his chosen mate over me? Let me make it easy for you Percy.." I spat out his name like it was venom.

"I will reject him first and if I decide to take a chosen mate, I expect to be treated the same way. Unless you are being bias as he is your son? I will not sit back and have my wolf go mad, see she's a problem and right now she wants blood. If it has to be Percy's, it very well could be and that is why I'm going away.’ I say, looking at Percy.

Percy mumbling something about me being unable to even put a scratch on him. I send a smirk his way.

"Let's not make any rash decisions yet. Sabrina, this union between Percy and Ralyn is for the good of the pack. Ralyn is of alpha blood, if she mates with Percy, they will have strong pups and we need that. You are of only beta blood, I'm sure you can understand?” Alpha said looking at me.

I laughed. For the first time since the pack meeting I laughed. Everybody was looking at me like I grew a second head but I didn't care. My mate was doing his daddy's bidding. It all makes sense now. What a spineless tooth of a ballsack. This is who the moon paired me with?!

"Mates are sacred. It is law. It is how we are all raised. It is drilled into us to live for our mates..” I said, a little irritation could be picked up in my tone. I'm trying here.

"You will do well to remember your place pup. You are in the presence of an alpha.” Alpha Charley stood up.

My family stayed seated because they weren't scared for my safety. If anything, they should stand so I don't rip this alpha to shreds.

I closed my eyes and took in a few breaths. Once calm, I opened them and looked at the alpha and his spawn.

"Very well. The pack comes first.” I say nonchalantly. I turn around to look at Josey, "We need to leave if we are to make it to human territory to catch the train. Stay well Alpha. Percy.” I say as I walk out followed by Remi, Cj and Josey.

Percy comes running out before I get into the car to drive off with Josey.

"Why aren't you having warriors escort you to your grandfather's?” He asks.

"Humans couldn't hurt me. What do you want Percy?" I ask in a bored tone.

"I need you to believe that it wasn't my idea to be with Ralyn. You see, it was the only way to deal with the rogue situation. I need you to believe me please.” He said as his eyes stared into mine trying to look into my soul.

"What does the rogue situation have to do with you mating with Ralyn?” I ask with my eyebrow raised. Oh this ought to be good...

"She is the Alpha Rogue's daughter. He wants his daughter to be mated to the future alpha or he will wage war on our lands. My father won't risk pack lives for us. I won't ask the pack to fight for me either when I can keep them safe. He has a 1000 warriors Sab. We are only 500 with 300 warriors. People will die. I can't ask that of them. Please understand.” He said..

I scoffed.. a coward. I was mated to man that just kneeled to a rogue rat of a king. A feral. Athena growled loudly for all to hear. She was furious. We knew we were more powerful than our mate but we

had no idea we were mated to a coward. What we lack in numbers, we make up in reinforcements. We have the skills to fight the war, the weapons to disable them. How does my mate not know this? Is he really that dense? Did he not get any alpha training?

Every wolf, even rogues know mates are sacred. It a gift even rogues accept wholeheartedly. The only law rogues live by and here was my mate, cowering between Ralyn's legs.

"Unbelievable!" My brother throws his hands in the air looking at my mate in shock. “Is that your excuse? Have you no pride? How can you even call yourself an alpha?”

"You're still a beta in training. Watch your words, I can very well pick someone else to take your position.” Percy growled out.

"Go ahead. We don't have another beta family in this pack. Something's fishy here and it has Ralyn written all over it. I hope the rumors aren't true

Percy. I hope you did not take her virtue only to have her father wage war on us” Cj said standing tall with his chest out to Percy.

Josey and I shared a look. I looked at Remi who also looked confused.

When I looked at Percy, he looked ashamed? Was this his doing?

"That's just pack gossip. I did no such thing! Sabrina you have to believe me, I would never...” Percy said grabbing my hand in his large ones. He takes a loose stand and puts it behind my ear.

"I was keeping that promise until my father asked this of me. You must know the pack will always come first.” Percy said as I pulled my hand from his. I knew Percy was no virgin. He had slept with a few girls before we found out we were mates. Maybe one of them was Ralyn.

"Good bye Percy. Don't call me.. Tell Ralyn, even on greener grass it snows. She'll understand.” See, Ralyn knew I was a white wolf. She was family.

Only family had seen my shift at 13 and she was there.

She would tell me stories of how the grass is always greener on the other side and how she had a plan to get to that side. Now since my wolf is white as snow... you can fill out the blanks.

Climbing into my red Ferrari 488. "Oh and Percy?" I call out to him as I close my door and roll down my window, “out of my way’ I roll up my window revving my car. Looking at Josey who was playing Rihanna's needed me, I turned it up and sped off our driveway. The need to be far away from Percy

was so strong that I almost forgot my plan before we passed the pack border. I came to a halt on the line between the packland and no mans land.

"Why'd you stop Sab? Please don't tell me you're having second thoughts” Josey said panic evident in her eyes

"No. I'm leaving, I just want to make it for good.’ I say as I get Out of my car. Josey's eyes bulge out still trying to register what i said and before she could stop me, I stand between the line, one foot on each side and say,

"I Sabrina Kimberley Trent reject Percy Woods as my mate. I Sabrina Kimberley Trent free myself of the Blue Woods pack and severe all ties relating to the pack. I accept my new position as a rogue from this moment on.” When I felt a headache come on and go away just like that, I knew it was my dad and he was going to find us so I put the car back in gear and race off to the great Unknown.

Josey was stunned. Kept telling me dad was ordering us to return this instant but I was having none of it. I will not sit idly by and watch my mate marry another. Feel my mate give himself to another.

The further away I was from Percy, the less I'd feel. If he was to sleep with Ralyn, yes I'd feel it but it's better when I'm far away so I don't go hunting for Ralyn.

I decided we drive all the way to the lakeside manor seeing as I'm a rogue now and my scent could make people feel a little uneasy. My phone kept ringing and I knew it was Percy because he had not accepted my rejection because I would've felt the pain in my chest. Athena felt powerful, she was ready to take on the world.

"Maximus keeps calling you Sab. You need to answer it. He's only worried about you.” Josey said.

"I know.... I just can't talk about Percy right now. I'm on a power trip and I'm enjoying this high for now. I want to enjoy this moment because I know it will be short lived.” I say to Josey who nods her head in understanding.

My phone rings again and this time i decide to answer by putting it on speaker through the radio.

"Max, I'm driving.” I say as he chuckles and my sister swoons all over. See Josey has had a crush on Max forever. She's a confident girl but in front of Max? A complete klutz. She is clumsy and flimsy and all the sy's you can think off. Problem is I know Max likes me. Josey knows it too.

"Hello to you too Kimberley’. he likes to call me Kim, says it makes him feel special that he’s the only one that does. Keeps telling me I look like my

mother.

"I heard about your mate. Your father called and asked me to accept you into my pack to remove the rogue stench that's probably taking over your scent right now. I'd be happy to, always said you could be my luna...” I roll my eyes at that. "Pass by my pack before you go to lakeside. My warriors know you're coming.” He drops the line before I could respond.

"Don't you wish he was your mate? He is hotter than Percy..." Josey said while I kept throwing glares at her still trying to keep my eyes on the road.

"I mean obviously you don't see it with the mate bond and all but please just take a look at Max when we get there? Just really look at him. Also try to sniff the air when he's around women. You'll understand. Even I get aroused by the sight of him" Josey said forgetting she’s 15 and Max is 19.

"Josey Sands Trent, you get your mind out of the gutter right now! I can't believe what I'm hearing.” I say in exasperation. In shock really.

"Oh stop being such a nun. I know you get wet dreams about Percy Schumrcey.. I've also heard Percy sneak in to the house to see you. I'm 15 not 5." Josey said pointing a finger at me.

"Oh stop it. I'm still intact, we never got intimate. Never even kissed actually and now I'll never get to taste my mate. I'll never get to smell like him and feel his pups move inside me...” I whisper but Josey heard me as a sombre mood took over in the car.

"Ok we took a little detour but I'm bringing us back to Max! Max Sabrina. He's hot and you'd be stupid not to get some of that! If you don't want him then tell him so he can give us a chance. Sheesh I'm no prude, I welcome some dirty action. Here here daddy Max..” we laugh. We laughed so hard I forgot about what I even said before then. I looked at Josey while she was sleeping and thanked the moon and my parents for her. This 15 year old put her life on hold so she could hold my hand. Comfort me. Cry with me and laugh with me.

It's been 4 hours of driving and my ass was sore from sitting for so long so I decided to make a pit stop to fuel up and stretch my legs. Josey ran into the shops to get some snacks while I waited outside just walking around to feel the breeze.

A group of men, about 6 of them walked out of the bar opposite the gas station and they had that stench of a rogue mixed with some heavy alcohol.

Werewolves can get drunk but not for long. Our healing capabilities made sure of that and that's why when we drink, we take in the hard liquor for that effect.

"Look at that beauty. Boys lookie here, a 488 engine. My goodess.” The guy in the middle said then took a look at me..

"My my my... two beauties for the taking. You have no scent babydoll, are you recently banished? Haven't had the time to relish in your freedom? I can show you a good time if you want" like I was their next meal. Rogues.

"I'm good old man. Keep it moving’ i say in a bored tone. I really don't have the energy to deal with these assholes but Athena wants blood.

"Old man? Let me show you what this old man can do. Who knows, maybe the moon will bless us with rain while I take your innocence. I can still smell it" he smirks.

Shewolves release a scent when they are still intact, to appease their mate when they meet. Male wolves walk around their mate sniffing them to find that scent off innocence. They take pride in that, knowing they will be the first and the last.

"No thanks. Like I said keep it moving. I don't feel like fighting today. I have a long drive ahead of me and I'd like to keep blood of my clothes." I say still in a bored tone. This man thinks he can intimidate me but he's yet to learn who I am. I may not be able to shift into my wolf but I can still have Athena's power to fight in human form.

"Fight? This girl thinks she can take us on lads. How ‘bout that?" They chuckle making comments here and there.

"Sab, what's going on?" Josey asked standing beside me.

"This wrinkle of a ball thinks he can take my innocence. What do you say? Athena wants to play. I take 3 you take the other 3?" I ask and Josey smiles.

She knows I need to spill blood to feel better. My wolf needs this.

She nods her head in agreement as she sets the snacks in the car before coming back to stand next to me.

"How about we time this? 5minutes?" She asks with a grin plastered on her face. I send her an even bigger one.

"5 minutes baby. Let's do this!!" I say out loud while getting in position. Letting my claws out.

"Oh two for one special boys!! Its our lucky day today. We get the girls and the car. Sweeeeeeet!.." Mr ring leader says. Oh I'm starting with him.

I release my power to full Max and so does Josey, making them stop their useless jokes and comments and look at us in awe.

Not wanting to waste any more time I run to big mouth and jump over him only to pull his head from his body in less than a second. I look at the rest of them, looks of horror on their faces. Josey takes this as an opportunity to take down the other three as I run to the others.

I tried to not get any blood on me but we are animals after all though daddy taught us to clean after ourselves so I took a barrel, from I don't know where and threw in all their limbs and heads into it and set it alight.

This was much needed. My wolf was satiated for now. We felt alive. She could relax in the back of my head relishing in the success of a kill.

"Come on Josey, let's get going before Max sends a search party after us" I say as I start the car to drive off.. Josey climbs in the car with a new shirt on and looks at me wrinkling her nose.

"I'll change when I get to Max's ok?" I say leaving no room for a response.

I just need to drive. Just drive Sabrina.

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We drive into Max's driveway. There were guards everywhere. Lycans don't play around with security detail. Even Max travels with 20 guards at least, even though he could fight a hundred wolves alone, its their way of life.

I step out of the car to smell the fresh air. It always rains at the Forrest Packlands. I loved it, it was a refreshing scent that made me want to shift into my wolf and run in the woods..

"Good evening ma'am. I am Sir Albert Chambers and I am the head butler at your service." He says with a curt nod in my direction. He looks at Josey and says the same thing.

"It looks like you all went hunting before your arrival? He says appalled by the amount of blood all over the car and us. Well mostly me since I didn't change. I will have Evelyn and Margery escort you to your

rooms and help you freshen up before dinnertime.." Albert says looking us up and down. He was human. A human butler?

"Oh Albert, quit being so formal with them. This is Sabrina and Josey. They are family. Hello my beautiful daughters...he pauses. Taking us in. See, this man loves beauty. If you are a woman and you catch his eye? He will try and most times successfully bed you. Except for my mom and boy he won't let my dad forget it.

As if on que, "Wow and here I thought Kimberley was the most beautiful woman I've ever seen but of course her daughters had to outrank her. It is only fair it be her two girls" Alpha Deacon said..

"Uncle Deacon, it's been forever. You really don't age" I say

"Oh little moon, I am after all Lycan. Besides our good looks, we are given the gift of time. When you look at this handsome face and killer bod as you kids call it these days, you'll think I couldn't be over 40 but in reality I'm only 450years of age." He says with a smirk.

"Uncle Deacon! You are centuries old!! " Josey says shock written all over her face.

"Now who are these things that call you by your name Alpha?" A red haired woman walks over to Deacon looking at us in disgust.

"Now now Celine. Just because I shove my dick inside you from time to time doesn't give you the right to walk around my home and disrespect my guests. You are my whore, know your place." Uncle Deacon says looking ever calm. Void of any emotion but his tone suggested otherwise.

"I'm sorry girls, forgive her. You are aware of the term dick whipped? I make sure my women never leave my chambers unsatisfied but it seems I've done my job a little to well. Somebody is getting Luna ideas but not to worry, I will deal with her. You two go freshen up. Max is training but he will be here shortly." Deacon says forgetting we are all but 16 and 15.

Shaking my head we follow Albert who shows us to our rooms where Josey is right opposite me.

"This is master Maximus floor. He apologises for not being able to welcome you but will be home soon. Please take rest and I will ring you at me" he nods at us and walks away.

I look at Josey who just shrugs and walks into her room, closing her door before saying anything to me. Oh well.

I open my door to see my bags placed at the closet door. My windows are all open, just how I like it and my balcony door too. The smell of rain overtaking the entire room, just how I liked it. Max remembered. I smile to myself as I walk to the bathroom to wash off all the blood and dirt. This is the pack

that will take me in, Alpha Deacon knows this could mean losing Blue Moon pack as an ally but he doesn't need them anyway. If we're being honest, Blue Moon needs Alpha Deacon's pack more than anything.

I shred my clothes and jump in the shower. Washing off all the red from my body. I got out drying myself with a towel. I put on some lotion and my good girl perfume, dried my hair and let the curls settle in. Went to my suitcase to get a maxi dress out to wear for dinner. In the mean time, I'll just wear my

grey sweatpants and matching crop hoodie. I'll take a nap before Max arrives because I know we won't be getting much sleep. He's the only one that's seen my wolf except for my family.

He and Alpha Deacon know our secret. They don't believe we should be in hiding, in fact, they think it's crazy that a power so great should be hidden.

Alpha Deacon let's me run in my wolf on his land around his property. I feel free when I'm here... I drift off to sleep soon as darkness takes me in and I go in willingly...