My Love for You Broke Me

Chapter 138

A product of the Xenos Family's backward rules…

This is Shawn's evaluation of Kiara.

That remark is simply too cruel and heartless.

At that moment, I thought of the elegant woman wearing a glittering Gibson dress in front of me yesterday. She was a woman who received modern education. She understood the urbanization of this society and the meaning of monogamy, yet she was willing to share Shawn with other women just because she loved him.

I nestled in his arms as I muttered something that sounded particularly just: "She speaks well and understands her situation. She's like this—Sunny, she's not a product of Xenos Family's rules. She's just a pitiful woman who wants to hold onto you tightly."

He didn't respond to my remark. Somehow, he seemed indifferent toward things that he was not interested in. Later, he changed the topic and asked me, "Are you sleepy?"

However, I shook my head as I replied, "I'm not sleepy."

Then, as he delicately caressed the skin on my face with his slender and fair fingers, he suddenly asked in confusion, "It has been raining heavily these few days. Why did you suddenly come to the countryside in the middle of the night?"

He asked me this question earlier, but I digress. If I don't give him an answer, I know he'll definitely look up on it too.

Well, I can be honest and tell him that my parents are still alive. But deep down, I'm hesitant. It's not that I don't trust him. It's just that I'm still in a state of bewilderment.

I still can't figure out the truth, so telling him will only add more complications to the trouble. Besides, I still haven't calmed down from learning about my real identity.

So far, even I find it hard to accept that my biological parents suddenly became my adoptive parents!

And I just learned the fact that they're still alive.

At the thought of that, my mind was in a mush. So, I rubbed my cheeks against Shawn's chest as I said in confoundment, "I have some personal affairs that even I am unsure of the truth. It's all so chaotic and messed up. I'll tell you when I can make heads or tails out of it."

I didn't tell him, yet I didn't plan to hide it from him either. Shawn did not ask any further when he saw that I was genuinely indecisive and perplexed. After that, he reminded me. "Sure. Let me know if there's anything that you can't solve."

I answered affirmatively upon hearing his words. Suddenly, I remembered that his mother tried to dope him because she wanted a grandchild. Hence, I asked him out of curiosity, "Do you like children?"

At the sudden mention of the word 'children', Shawn's gaze turned colder. Then, with a slight chill in his tone, he said, "Hardly."

Although Shawn said that he did not particularly like children, Waylen ever said that Shawn once thought of starting a family and having children… Is Shawn deliberately saying this because he knows I can't conceive a child?

And thus, I reminded him. "Your mother wants grandchildren."

Shawn's cold voice sounded from above my head. "I'm not interested in having children, but my mother keeps urging me. After all, there are no other younger generations in the Xenos Family."

I haven't met Shawn's mother, Alicia Haiss, yet. At most, I only saw her upstairs a few days ago. Even so, I only saw the general outline of her silhouette, and I can't exactly remember what it looked like.

However, women of her temperament are rare. Well, all women born in the Xenos Family should have temperaments like hers, right?"

I let out a soft 'Oh'. Then, I looked up and saw Shawn's smooth chin. So, I raised my head as I kissed his chin intimately.

He curled the corners of his lips and smiled. As usual, there was a hint of frivolity in his smile.

Regardless, I still giggled like a silly girl when I saw his smile too.

Shawn pressed his chin against my head when he saw me like this. Then, with his low and charmingly magnetic voice, he said, "Only you can act so daring in front of me. It's truly a miracle that I haven't scolded you for anything yet."

Shawn has always been taciturn. He's basically someone who will only answer each question successively. But now, he has become more talkative than before.

Furthermore, the words he spoke were so enticing.

I played with his fingers as I said complacently, "Of course. I'm your woman. Surely, you have to pamper me!"

However, Shawn merely smiled without saying a word upon hearing my cheeky remark. I stared at his slender fingers and made a bold move. I took one of his fingers and put it into my mouth, sucking it for a long time and not letting go.

Shawn's fingers were exceptionally beautiful. I tried to hold them in my mouth several times, but I did not have the proper status to do so.

Moreover, I had always been afraid of him and would not dare to approach him. Now that I finally became his woman, I finally had the status of being able to do this.

I licked his finger with the tip of my tongue, and Shawn didn't pull it out either. Instead, he moved his finger reflexively and asked lightly, "Is it fun?"

Perhaps it was because I was injured; Shawn was exceptionally tolerant of me as he let me bite him. He also let my saliva drool on his palm. Suddenly, the atmosphere lingering between us became more and more subtle, and I could feel the changes in my heart.

Right now, I kind of want Shawn.

I feel like he is thoroughly teasing me.

Seemingly noticing my shift in mood, he lowered his head and kissed my cheek. Then, he pulled his finger out of my mouth and wrapped his arms around my shoulder. After that, he said, "Sleep for a while. The doctor will come to change your wound dressing at night."

I was a little aggrieved and pouted. "Sunny."

Nevertheless, he was firm as he coaxed me, "Be a good girl."

Still, I called out in grievance, "Shawn…"

"Behave your—"

Shawn paused as he seemed to want to criticize me for not respecting him. Perhaps he suddenly remembered that our statuses were different now, so he swallowed the words that were about to escape his lips. Finally, he coaxed me as he said, "Be good, listen to me."

I closed my eyes, feeling somewhat disappointed at the turn of events. Maybe I was mentally tired because of my injury because it didn't take long for me to fall asleep in his arms.

As his refreshing scent lingered around me, I knew he never left. That was until a voice sounded from outside. "Mr. Xenos."

Shawn let go of me upon hearing the voice. I wasn't exactly in a deep sleep, so I heard someone calling him. However, I didn't want to open my eyes because I was too exhausted.

Hence, I continued to close my eyes and sleep. Then, I seemed to hear the man who called him speak. "Ms. Felix's CT scan result has just come out. Unfortunately, this car accident has caused her back to sustain a severe injury, and she cannot recover in a short period of time."

Shawn asked in a glacial voice, "What are the side effects?"

All of a sudden, that person explained nervously. "It doesn't have much impact on Ms. Felix's health, but she's unable to use much of her energy. Therefore, her body will appear weak. It also poses a danger for childbirth as it severely suppresses her central nervous system."

I am infertile?!

At that moment, I wanted to open my eyes. I desperately tried to open them, but my eyelids felt very heavy. Then, I heard Shawn speak in a cold tone. "I understand. Come back tomorrow to change the dressing of her wound."

"Yes, Mr. Xenos."

Suddenly, it was quiet outside. I heard only the noise of the rain, and I seemed to feel Shawn returning to bed and embracing me again.

I want to open my eyes, but I can't.

It's like being stuck in my own body.

This feels similar to sleep paralysis.

But I suddenly felt lost when I opened my eyes and saw the man sleeping beside me. Was it just a dream of mine?!

Right now, I can't tell if it's reality or a dream.

I raised my hands and covered my eyes in confusion. Unfortunately, my movement awakened Shawn as he opened his eyes and asked in a slightly husky voice, "You're awake?"

The man's hair was slightly messy. It was as if he had slept beside me for a long time without leaving the room. This content © Nôv/elDr(a)m/a.Org.

But the conversations just now…

Could it be that I'm really dreaming?!

Unable to put a pin in my anxiety, I asked him hesitantly, "Did the doctor come over earlier?"