I Am The Luna

Life really does change a lot, but one thing I learned was to always communicate, never jump to conclusions or take life–changing decisions on your own. It cost me precious years with Zaia, and it caused her so much heartache. But that was a lesson I learned too late when I had

almost lost her.

I had lost her, had to stay away from her to give her the time she needed, without knowing if I’d ever get her back.

No matter how much I do, I’ll never be able to make it up to her. Until this day, sometimes I can see things getting a lot for her. But instead of saying she’s having a bad day and needs a break, she will carry on, so used to dealing with everything by herself. But I’ve learned to pick up those signs, so I can intervene and give her that break without her having to tell me.

That’s something I saw over dinner with Valerie and Zade. I’ll never admit it, but he’s observant of what she wants and needs and does things in a way she doesn’t even realise and without suffocating her and being overbearing.

I always wondered why Jai chose her. I didn’t think they were compatible, but love works in a way unknown to man. I don’t think Zade and Valerie are compatible if you look at their upbringing and backgrounds, but somehow, they just… go.

And it hurts to see she’s far happier now than she ever was with Jai. They clashed a lot, there was a lot of bickering, and he didn’t know how to handle Valerie’s temper.

I had heard the commotion earlier when one of Zade’s pack members left but didn’t bother going down. However when I decided to go ask Atticus what happened I hadn’t found the fool, but I did end up hearing the conversation between Valerie and Zade.

One I shouldn’t have, but my hearing has always been better than most. It wasn’t like it was intentional. I keep my presence masked as Zade exits the room. He pauses, and I wonder if he picked up my presence. I wait until I hear his quiet footsteps recede, frowning when I don’t hear anything else.

Where has he gone?

I step out from behind the pillar, wondering what way he went. I glance towards the steps just in time to see his shadow disappear down the hall. I follow quietly, seeing the back door shut.

I frown for a moment. Should I even bother? Frowning, I push away the doubt, knowing what both Zaia and Jai would want even if I dislike him for everything he has done. My wolf stirs, making my brows kit together tighter as I pull open the door and look around.

He’s gotten away! This is property © of NôvelDrama.Org.

I run my fingers through my hair when I hear the flick of a cigarette lighter, and I turn to see Zade sitting on the ground at the side of the building. He lights his cigarette before taking a drag on it.

“You’ve gotten rusty,” he remarks, not looking at me.

“Yeah, I don’t think I have, I sensed you,” I refute, although I hadn’t sensed him. I am not planning on admitting to that.

“What do you want? Shouldn’t you be in bed with your woman by now?”

“I could say the same to you, yet you’re out here.” I shoot back.

His frown deepens as he continues to smoke his cigarette. “What I do is none of your concern, “he answers quietly, but even I notice the edge from his normal attitude is missing. Walking over to him, I nod my head towards his cigarette.

“Got a spare?”

Not answering, he takes the box out and tosses it at me. I catch it, taking a cigarette out before he holds the lighter up, flicks it on, and lights it. I nod. “Thanks.”

We fall silent as I take a seat on the steps a few feet away from him.

“So, leaving her after she shares something like that? Not exactly smart,” I remark, taking a drag on the cigarette.

“Eavesdropping? Not exactly smart either,” he counters.

Dick.

“Look, I’m not here to say do this or that, but what I will say is don’t fuck up things because of your own insecurities. She doesn’t deserve that.”

“I don’t think you really care for what she wants.”

“Believe it or not, I do. She’s always been there for Zaia, thanks to everything the Sable tried, I abandoned Zaia right when she needed me the most. When she was pregnant with our twins …” I look down at my hands. I’ll regret what I did even if I was trying to do it for the right

reasons.

“Yeah, well, I’m not abandoning her. I wouldn’t do that.”

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“But if she’s pregnant? And she refuses to get rid of it?” I ask.

He remains silent as he stares unseeingly ahead. After a few minutes, I don’t think he’s going to reply and I’m about to get up when he speaks.

“You saw me as a Sable, you know who I am,” he tells me quietly.

Yeah, there was Gaultier, the sadistic, unhinged psycho… I saw him kill and torture people. And then there was Zade. Cold, calm, and calculating, his torture and methods were far more chilling than Gaultier… there was just something about a calm killer than an unhinged nutcase

Maybe he’s changed, but I wouldn’t leave my kids in the same room as him knowing what he’s capable of… unless he’s on their side…

I sigh heavily. “What I saw was survival. The power and resilience to survive no matter what. We all did things whilst we were there, and you were there longer than us all… Don’t let your past fuck up your future, and if you’ve chosen to be an alpha, then you’re going to need to make an heir at some point.”

“Maybe.”

“Talk to her.” I stand up, glancing down at his emotionless face, but he remains staring ahead. He always was hard to read… I’m about to head back inside when I pause and glance back at him. I’m doing this for you, Zaia… “Zaia always had faith that there was good in you. Don’t let her faith be in vain.”

“She’s delusional,” he replies quietly.

Think what you want. There’s got to be something that both of them see in you. And although women are crazy, delusional and hard to understand… they are often right… 2

Shaking my head, I put out my cigarette; my work is done here. With one final glance at him, I push open the door and step inside… >

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