Chapter 223
Angel
I went to the club tonight and alone. Knight and Caspian were no longer fond of it and I couldn’t stand being home and not be able to see the one person I wanted to be around.
I played some games, drank, popped my smoke but none of it filled the void in me. I returned to my vault and watched some strippers perform and by the time it ended I wasn’t aware.
“Boss, your whore is here.” Said one of my men. He was referring to Natalia. I had not asked for her since I came neither had I been to the club since Thea collapsed.
My mood was dead to sex tonight, it was already hard fucking another woman without thinking of Thea and I couldn’t bring myself to do it tonight but I thought I needed the extra company because I felt so lonely.
“Let her in.” I said and Natalia stepped in looking all fancy with her strip wear and a mood of excitement. I wondered if she couldn’t feel the cold aura in the room.
“Where have you been. I missed you.” She said running over to my side and sitting on one thigh. She wrapped her hands around my neck and rested her head on my shoulder.
“I tried reaching you but I couldn’t get through. Did you block me?” She asked raising her head. I wasn’t paying much attention but I could hear everything she said. Instead of answering, I took a shot of my alcoholic drink. “Angel did something happen?” She said now sitting up. I could see her worried face through the corners of my eyes.
I took another shot of my drink and felt it burn harshly on my throat but I didn’t make a face. My problems outweighed the burning sensations.
“Do you want me to strip? Suck your dick or ride you?” She said and I sighed in disappointment. I made a slight head turn to look at her and she looked back expectantly.
“Is sex the only thing you think about all day?” I asked and she looked taken aback for a moment.
“Well, yes. I’m a stripper? I think of fucking you every night.” She blurted and I chuckled. She was being truthful not caring how much of a whore she sounded. “Seriously, tell me what’s wrong?” She asked and I squinted my eyes at her. Natalia and I had never been the ones to talk about anything outside our business of fucking each other or anything related to it.
I looked at her for a minute contemplating and was surprised that I was really considering it but I needed a non-biased opinion on the matter. I suddenly remembered Sparrow’s words the last time he countered me by the hallway. He said the bitch loved me. Could he have been right?
I looked at her more curiously, even if she were, how would he know about that? No whore in their right mind would tell another master that they fucked about having feelings for his rival.
“Are you in love with me, Natalia?” I asked and she gasped, looking at me shocked. It got me more suspicious but then she assumed a normal countenance.
“You’re a very attractive man Angel, it’s a difficult thing not feel anything for you and besides you’re in love with another woman.”
“You’ve not answered the question Natalia.” I said realizing she was playing smart with her answers. She kept quiet for some seconds before speaking again.
“No, I’m not in love with you because I know my limits and held myself.” She said and I looked away from her. I didn’t entirely believe her, maybe she wasn’t in love but she certainly had some feelings for me. Maybe a little stronger than just mere attraction. Maybe my next question wouldn’t hurt her.
“What if I was wrong about Thea?” I said and she went silent as if trying to process what I had just said. She let out a nervous laugh and gave me a look of confusion.
“Why would you say that?” She asked instead and I didn’t miss the disappointment in her tone. It got me curious.
“Something happened and it made me question my judgement.” I said thinking about the whole situation all over again. I sat up weaving my hands together.
“What happened?”
“I think Thea is still in love with me.” I said and saw her face wrinkled in annoyance. “Why are you looking at me like that?” I asked surprised at the reaction. She adjusted her facial expression and gave me a weak smile instead. She sipped from my drink and let out a sigh afterwards.
“I think you’re letting her deceive you again. Didn’t you say you’d torture her till she begged?”
“I did but this time was different. She isn’t begging. She says terrible words and acts like she hates me.” I said and she frowned looking confused again. I understood, my words were contrasting.
“If she acts like she hates you then why would you think she’s in love with you? It doesn’t make sense Angel. She might be playing a game which you’re falling for.”
“Then why do I feel like everyone at home supports and believes her?” Natalia sighed in frustration and stood up from my thigh looking pissed.
“She’s deceiving you all. You all are falling for her game. Look Angel, I didn’t want to say this for the longest time because Thea was your whore and you fell in love with her but Thea is not who you think she is.” Natalia said and came to sit beside me. I did think the same when I thought she betrayed me so I didn’t blame her for believing so. However I decided to listen.
“Go ahead.” I saw a glint of satisfaction in her eyes as I said that.
“At the regulars, no one likes Thea, she got in trouble with every other girl and went as far as stealing their clients because she could. I never understood what they saw in her….” I raised a brow and she paused then cleared her throat. Even I knew what they saw in her. She had that sex appeal like no one else and making love to her was an addiction on its own. I didn’t even want to start with how sexually unsatisfied I had been since I last made love to her.
Fuck! I felt my dick twitch at the thought. Not now fucker! I caused and tried to adjust my position so that Natalia didn’t get the wrong idea.
“Quite acceptable she’s an exceptional performer but she couldn’t be that good in bed.” I sighed. I could sense the jealousy in her tone but I understood. I got rid of her because of Thea. Anyone would be jealous. I was to the strippers what Thea was to the men.
“Did you ever find out why Micheal tried to kill Thea in the first place before you bought her?” I squinted more surprised that Natalia knew of that information.
“How did you know about that?” She looked uneasy and cleared her throat.
“I’m a stripper I hear things. The point is Thea is manipulative and can have any man under feet and I think you’re one of them. I’m certain she tried to escape that night since you wouldn’t let her go. Don’t let her deceive you Angel. As strippers, we know how to pretend. Remember you and the others use our services sometimes. It takes great acting skills to carry out such dangerous task. You think Thea wouldn’t use that to her advantage?”
I relaxed back on my chair feeling the weight of what she said on my shoulder. What she was saying about Thea wasn’t a fact and she haden’t spent much time with Thea to know her like I do.
Still she was right about the acting part. We used strippers sometimes as sheilds when handling our business.
“Angel,” she called palming my face and pulling me to face her. “I pretend to enjoy sex with Sparrow even though I hate his guts and he actually believes he’s the best at the game, I can assure you that Thea isn’t genuine. It’s all pretense.” She said and I placed my hand above her and pulled it down gently. She followed my movement confusion clading her face. I placed a finger on her jaw and tilted her head up to look at me.
“Was it also pretense when you said you didn’t love me?” I asked and her eyes widened like she had just been caught lying. I smirked and pulled her face close to mine. I palmed her neck and rubbed it so gently so that a moan escaped her throat then I leaned towards her ear and whispered.
“Whatever feelings you have for me Natalia, get rid of it because I’ll never feel the same way for you.” I said and pulled away from her. She was visibly shaking and her eyes glistened with tears. I was right, Sparrow was. She did have something deep going on for me. “I’d like to be alone now.” I said and stood up from the couch walking towards the bathroom to flush down the remnant of my drink in the sink.
Natalia had gone when I came out and I had sent a message to my men to get ready to leave.Text content © NôvelDrama.Org.
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When I got home that night, I tried to sleep but like I said, sleep was far from me these days. Drinking away my sorrows wasn’t a consideration either this night and nowhere seemed comfortable for me in the mansion. It suddenly didn’t feel like home.
As I wandered through the mansion, a place came into mind and I suddenly felt at peace. I wanted to go there, the place I had thought I kissed Thea but then it turned out to be some maid. That feeling of tasting her lips that night, it lingered on that I found it so hard to believe I had done that with someone else and felt such kind of pleasure.
I walked towards the area, thinking about Thea along the way. Deep down, I wished things would go back to normal. That Thea would forgive me because everyday I lived in fear of losing her.
I stopped suddenly in my tracks seeing that I had company as well.
It was a lady with her back turned against me, I squinted as I was soon taken by shock. Tonight I wasn’t drunk and could never be mistaken. I knew that shape very well, it was her, standing at the spot I believed we shared a kiss.
It was Thea.