Chapter 201
Coming back from his meeting with the men, Caspian had not expected to see two women leaving his room because as far as he was concerned, he lived with only one.
He was startled to see Thea, moreso, leaving his room. He knew how Angel had been ever since she betrayed him and he was at the recieving end of Angel’s passed aggression. They all had to walk on egg shell when it concerned her yet Camilo had the guts to bring her into his room.
He had just put his loyalty and Angel’s trust in him on the line by interfering with her brother Theo. He even got him released after persuading Angel to let the men live when in truth he was doing it for the woman he loved.
“On your path I’d let it slide but I won’t have it repeat again.” He said letting Thea off the hook. He didn’t share the compassion Camilo had for Thea but he knew he would be getting on her bad side should Thea get in trouble because of him.
He couldn’t afford for that to happen, at least not today.
“Go.” He said and she left in a haste. He was pissed at Camilo and she knew it so she looked at her feet avoiding his glare instead.
He walked towards her, grabbing her by the hand and dragging her into the room. He pushed her slightly and slammed the door behind him.
“What was that all about Camilo?” His annoyance was unhidden and it startled her. She knew she was wrong but it was a risk worth taking for her dear friend.
“I’m sorry but she was hungry.” She explained.
“Come on Camilo!” Caspain yelled flaring his hand up in the air feeling disappointed. “There’s provision for her food. Don’t tell me, that was your best idea at spending time with your friend.”
Camilo remained silent and it was quite frustrating for him. She obviously didn’t think this through.
“What we’re you thinking bringing her to our room? What if someone saw you? You could get us both in trouble with what you did!”
“Well I’m sorry!” She yelled back.
“Camilo!” He called seeing she was getting angry as well. He was only trying to get her thoughts back in order. He was responsible for her and couldn’t afford her getting too emotional in situations like this.
“You didn’t expect me to watch her starve when I could do something about it Caspain. Didn’t you see her, did she look like she was being fed?”
“None of that is your business.” He said through gritted teeth annoyed at her ignorance of their situation.
“She’s my friend Caspian.” She said softly while searching his eyes for a hint of understanding but unfortunately he had no such emotion.
“What friend?” He scoffed. “We almost lost our lives because of her selfish decision.” He said reminding her but she looked down on her feet. It was obvious were her loyalty lied.
“It’s not her fault.” She defended looking him straight in the eyes to show her conviction. “Thea didn’t do it to cause any harm. She was… She was….” She stopped, realizing she didn’t even know the full story as to what happened that night. All she knew was that Thea didn’t betray Angel.
“What was her reason then? Go on, spill it!”
“I don’t know….” She muttered feeling embarrassed.
“Whatever her reason was, she is still part of the the reason we were attacked that night. She knew of the attack and took advantage of it. Did you know how many lost their lives? What about their family huh?” He yelled startling Camilo.
He watched her for a moment and could see that she wasn’t taking his scolding well.
He felt bad for frightening her but it needed to be said. He could withstand Angel’s fury but he didn’t want her to be part of it.
His bestfriend was broken because of her friend and their was no way he’d side her over Angel. Angel was important as much.
He resigned to a calmer way of talkig to her maybe he had been too harsh.
“What if I didn’t make it back. would you still choose to believe her? What if I didn’t return to you cami?”
There was silence on her end, she seemed to be thinking it through. While Caspian waited for an answer, she relived that night in her mind, the night she thought she lost him.
The memory hurt her and she remembered how scared she was. He wouldn’t be standing here right now if he haden’t made it that night and how would her life had turned out? How could she live without him when he was now a greater part of her life.
He was right here with her yet she didn’t have the courage to love him or be loved by him because she felt she owed it to her brother.
“It wasn’t her fault.” She found herself saying refusing to be compromised. The shock Caspian felt after hearing that was evident and he looked slightly hurt but somehow he understood her.
She was a pure soul and would probably not fault her friend since she trusted her.
He clenched his jaw feeling annoyed at her insistence but there was no convincing her. He paced about the room before returning to stand in front of her. He was pissed off and she knew it.
“I won’t be put in that position again Camilo. Where I have to bend the rules to protect the people you care about. You will stay away from Thea and you won’t help her through whatever means. Is that clear?”
She hesitated a little before nodding. There was no telling what length he’d go to keep Thea away from her.
Deep down she understood he was only trying to protect her so she nodded in agreement.
“Yes.” She answered despite knowing she was going to do the direct opposite. He let out a deep breath, apparently the tension between them was much and he got the best of the heat. He needed to get some air to calm down, so he walked towards the door leaving Camilo.
“Would you be going to the club today?” She asked stopping him from leaving. She wasn’t okay not after he yelled at her yet he was her only consolation. She wanted him to stay.
“Yes, of course.” He answered without turning to see her. He left shutting the door behind her and a whimper left her throat.
She had tried to mask her feelings all these while knowing he would have himself inside a whore again tonight but what was she expecting, that he’d be loyal to her after she pushed him away several times?
She bit her lips trying to surpress her tears from flowing but suddenly she startled seeing the door open up again.
A huge relieve washed over her seeing Caspian standing there. He closed the door gently and walked towards her with a curious gaze.
“Why do you ask?”
He said and she found the words difficult to say. Her lips quivered till she finally pryed them open to speak.
“Do you have a whore you sleep with?” She asked feeling scared of the answer.
Caspian was taken aback by her question, he could tell that she had kept the feelings in for way too long. She looked like it and it pleased him to know that she felt that way.
“Does it bother you?” He askedContent bel0ngs to Nôvel(D)r/a/ma.Org.
taking more steps towards her till they were two feet away from each other. She remained silent bending her head but her quivering lips gave her up. He tilted his head to the side to watch her. “Would you mind if I did?”
Camilo felt a pang of pain in her heart at his words so she looked at him slowly but he had a serious expression.
“Do you have….?” She whispered.
Caspian sighs looking away from her briefly. She was avoiding his question.
“What do you expect?” He asked instead and jealousy clouds her face. She’s hurt as images of him with a faceless whore banging each other played in her mind.
“Never mind.” She said and turned around in an attempt to walk away from him but he held her hand and spinned her towards himself. She gasped being startled from the abrupt act.
“Tell me, what do you really want from me Camilo? He asked searching her eyes for truth as well.
“Nothing.” She replied feeling annoyed from his earlier answer. Why did he care to know if he was still going to sleep with some stripper tonight.
“Why do you switch then? Why do you act like you want me today but push me away every other fucking day? Why does it hurt you to think I have a whore I fuck every night. Didn’t you wish I never touched you?” He said in one breath desperate for answers.
“Why don’t you just go.” She said dragging her hand away from him.
“Why don’t you just come with me.”
“What?” She was barely audible having not expected to hear that.
“… And see for yourself if I have a whore.”
She was shocked and wondered if he was being serious. They stared at each other without saying a word until Caspian broke the silence with a heavy sigh.
His sharp gaze also softened.
“I told you already, I’m in love with you.” He confessed again and her heart made several leapes feeling all excited again. “It’s been difficult but the only person I want to be in bed with is you Cami.” He said relieving her greatly of the hurt she felt in her heart.
“Really?” She asked as tears welled up her eyes, he could see her eyes glisten with tears and her breath deepening as her chest rose and fell. A drop of tear streams down her face and it surprises him.
Was she hurt that bad? He raised his thumb to her face and wiped the tear off her eyes gently.
“You’ve pushed me away too much, I’m not exhausted but I’m desperate. We live like strangers but I really want to hold you every night Cami.” He poured out his heart.
“I know I didn’t treat you right in the begining and if this is your way of punishing me then I’m fine with it.
My heart and body will wait untill you tell me you don’t want me.”
He says and she burst into tears unable to hold back her feeling. It was killing her holding back her feelings for him. How long could she go on like this? Caspian cupped her cheek in his palm feeling moved by her tears. He caressed it hoping to bring some comfort to her.
“I’m tired of feeling guilty Caspian.” She said surprising him but he understood what she meant.
“Then don’t… Don’t feel guilty.” He said feeling his craving for her surface with full force. He needed her so badly.
“Stay with me Caspian.”
“Are you sure?” He asked, he didn’t want her to have any regrets and push him away again. It would break him.
She nodded and slowly she placed her hand on his chest and trailed her eyes slowly to his lips.
“Kiss me.” She said dropping all her guilt and just allowing herself to feel vulnerable. Caspian gulped a huge lump down his throat, his body shivered from her request. A sharp sigh left his mouth as his heart drummed loudly against his ribcage.
“Is that what you really want?” He asked yet again to be sure because there was no going back even if she tried to pull away.
“Yes.” She answered firmly. “Kiss me and make love to me.”