Chapter 195
“Where are you going?”
He asked and I blinked nervously, his eyes did seem like he didn’t recognize me but I wasn’t sure maybe it was just the alcohol messing with his expression. I looked down on our hands and slid mine out of him. The warmth his touch provided was a danger to my resolve.
I swallowed hard finding my voice to speak. “What do you mean?” I said. Wondering the thoughts he had behind that question. If he did recognize me, he shouldn’t want me to stay because he had instructed I stayed out of his sight.
I caught his eyes on my hand which I withdrew from him. What was that I saw in his eyes? Was it disappointment? Did he hate the fact that I did that?
“Why are you asking that? ” I questioned further getting interested.
“Stay…. please stay.” I blinked in shock and let out shaky breaths.
“What?” I muttered finding it hard to believe. He wanted me to stay didn’t I disgust him? And why did I just feel excited about it?
“You’re drunk, do you even recognize me?” I pressed further to be sure where he placed me.
He laughs getting me confused yet yearning for a particular answer. What was wrong with me tonight. Why was I being so vulnerable?
“Do you…. do you recognize me?” I asked desperately.
“Hmm… You’re Thea.” He said and slowly raises his head to look at me and his eyes didn’t seem drowsy like before. I was stunned I wanted to say something but the words were lost in my throat.
My heart increased it’s pace and despite my denial I knew what I felt inside.
I was happy.
Angel shook his head and staggered away from me. He ran his fingers in frustration through his head and I wondered what changed now.
“I don’t even care just be her for tonight. Please just be Thea….” He begged, tracing his hand to my face, his fingers touched my cheeks and it tickled me sending flames if desire burning through me. I darted my eyes side to side looking at him. My eyes pooled and tears streamed down my face at his words.
He wanted me.
“Why would you say that?” I asked blinking out my tears.
“I miss you.” He whispered but it didn’t sound like he meant to answer my question.Content bel0ngs to Nôvel(D)r/a/ma.Org.
That was it, he had suceeded in making my emotions bare. What harm could loving him for one day cause? We were both vulnerable and even though one of us was conscious of our actions our feeling were both genuine. I placed my hand over his on my cheek and squeezed it, savouring his touch to my satisfaction.
“I miss us Angel… so much that I feel my heart’s going to explode.” I cried, this was me deep down despite the hate I swore I had for him. The guilt of saying that despite knowing what he did to Carl was trying to surface but I pushed it aside.
I had suffered so much both physically and emotional for a while now. I needed a break from all the emotions eating me up. I just wanted to be vulnerable with him tonight then we could go back to being enemies tomorrow.
I wished I could tell him I was having his baby but I couldn’t risk that. What if that was the only thing he remembered?
I pressed his hand on my cheek and brought it to my lips to kiss several times.
I know this was weak and selfish of me but it was just for tonight. I needed to satiate the need of other part of me that desired him.
“Do you still love me?” He asked shocking me again. Was he truly drunk? Even though we tend to be honest when drunk it still felt too much but I didn’t care either.
“I love you Angel, I only wish you believed this. I love you so much.” I confessed with tears streaming down my eyes.
He said nothing and trailed his thumb to my lower lips causing it to part from the upper lip slightly.
I saw him gulp hard and felt his yearning for me.
“I want to touch you.” He said leaning closer to my lips. I wanted it too but what would that mean after today so I looked to the side avoiding his kiss but he wasn’t letting me be. He slid his hand to the back of my waist and pulled me to himself then he placed a finger on my jaw turning me to face him.
The moment I looked into those alluring eyes of his I felt spelled and unable to resist him.
Silence reigned between us and he drew his face close to mine. I closed my eyes and a tear slipped out through the thin line.
His warm breath fanned my lips and then his skin on mine as his lips brushed slightly against mine. His lower lip slightly thrust in-between mine.
“Mmmhmm….” A shivering moan left my lips and I placed my hand on his bare chest which caused him to stiffen.
I felt his tough hands run through my back all the way to my hair where he dug his fingers into, pulling my face into his.
He groaned and tightened his grip on my hair then he deepened his lips into mine and my head spiralled in that moment as another moan left my throat. He tilted my head to the side and kissed me deeper and torrents of pleasure flowed through my body.
It was too much and too sweet that I felt if we went further we could end up doing it. I mean, making love so I pulled away but he pulled me back in and kissed me again.
I wanted to resist but with each sinful slide I felt lost in passion until he finally let me go slowly.
“I want to make love to you like before….”
“You’re drunk Angel this is the farthest we can go. You’d hate me tomorrow if you knew what we did.” I pleaded trying to wriggle my self from his hold but he held me tighter and the way he looked at me I was scared. This was the same look he always gave me each time he tore my cloths apart and made love to me.
“Please stop… We can’t.” I cried resisting and his grip on me softened to which I took advantage of and freed myself from him.
He looked like he was in so much pain. The look of feeling rejected, it almost persuaded me. All these was a genuine display of emotions but tomorrow it would be a drunk facade because in his right senses he would never kiss me because he hated me for something I didn’t do.
He wasn’t saying anything and I knew I could stay here any longer so with so much restrain applied I withdrew my steps. I was walking out of him and dropping everything that transpired between us here.