His Soul & His Shame

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I am driving like a mad man not caring about the red lights or even about getting into an accident. How can she reject me like that? How can she push me away from her? And how can she try to ghost me? I can't believe she is the same Fay I have known all the years.

My Fay was so sweet and shy and she will never raise her voice on me and most importantly she will never push me away. Something has changed in her and I am planning to find out what changed or who changed her.

My eyes narrowed at the thought of someone changing my Fay, Maybe her friend! What was her name? Ah! Joanna, maybe she brainwashed my Fay to behave like this with me but I know Joanna doesn't have that much cunningness to change someone's mind and especially Fay's.

I know I may sound like a jerk because of what I did to Fay, leaving her alone in the bed after I took her Virginity. That was a jerk move but I had to do that to save her from me. I regretted it the second my eyes opened, I don't regret making love to her but what I regretted was crossing the line with her because I don't deserve her and after that what I did with Fay is worse. I shouldn't have crossed the line with her. I can't give her what she wants and that is love, she wants love and a happy family but I will never be able to give her those things as I hate the thought of it.

My phone rang pulling me from my thoughts, my knuckles turned white from clutching the wheel so hard. My jaw is clenched tight with anger. My phone is connected to Bluetooth, Mike, my assistant, and my right-hand man is calling me. I swiped the call to answer it and Mike's voice filled the car. I didn't make any noise other than just a groan. He knows me very well and he doesn't need any words.

"Mr. Smith Is with us, our boys caught him when he was leaving for the airport to run away from us." My anger spiked at the fact that the traitor was trying to run away from me without clearing the debt he owes me. No, he doesn't owe me money but loyalty which he lacked.

"You know what to do with him? Right!" I smirked knowing I am going to have fun with him while I play with him for his betrayal.

"Yes, Boss! Our boys are already on it!" I ended the call feeling somewhat relaxed but in seconds my mind was occupied by Fay and her words. What made her so mad at me? I know there are a lot of things I did that will make her mad at me but still, I don't like how she behaved with me.

I know where to go to clear my head not for a long time but for some hours. My car turned towards the familiar path because I have traveled through this path so many times that it's carved in my head.

I parked the car and sat for a second just to clear up everything which was swirling through my head like a tornado ready to burst. I left the car locking it behind and took hurried steps towards the entrance. It feels like this is the only way I can get to feel relaxed after the fight with Fay and the make-out with her.

We were so close to ripping each other's clothes and I so eagerly wanted to bury myself deep inside her warm walls but she pushed me away. I gritted my teeth in anger for thinking about her when I am standing in front of another woman's house.

Mitchell is like a drug to me whereas Fay, she is my home and savior from my demons and myself. I am addicted to Mitchell but at the same time, I want to be with Fay, and every time I Fuck Mitchell I feel guilty for doing it like I was betraying Fay but I can't stay away from Mitchell.

I knocked on Mitchell's door and waited for her to open it so I could punish her for going to Fay's house and making her upset and at the same time relieving myself from all the stress. "E... Ezra?" She whispered out with wide eyes and parted lips seeing my narrowed eyes. She knows that she is going to get punished and she is excited and afraid at the same time. "Yeah? Are you expecting someone else?" I smirked looking at her gulping and nodding her head frantically to let me know that she is not.

"N.. No, I was waiting for you." Her grip on the door is so tight that her knuckles turned white. She is so aroused just standing in front of me making me groan seeing her squirming. "You know what you did, right?" I gritted out, all the color drained from her face. I pushed her inside and closed the door with a bang. She is backing away like I am a predator and she is my prey.

A smirk is permanently attached to my lips. She backed away till her back hit the couch. I pressed my body to hers making her moan out loud. My hand found her throat not gripping it tightly but at the same time not loosely.

"You were being a very bad girl," I whispered in her ear nibbling on it and slowly moving towards her jaw and back to her ear. She gasped and groaned with my slow torture and I am enjoying it. I am a sick b*****d who enjoys seeing people squirm.

"You know it right, what do I do to bad girls? Hmm!" My other hand trailed from the b**bs hardly pinching her nipple hearing her pained gasp. My hand went into her shorts and to my surprise, she was not wearing her panties over the shorts. "were you waiting for me to come and fuck you? That's why you didn't wear anything under this!" I cupped her dripping core and pushed my finger into her. I smashed her lips with mine to cover her loud moan. I started thrusting my finger and My thumb pressing on the clit and by her riding my finger I knew that she was so close to cumming but I stopped abruptly and removed my hands from her shorts.

"Ezraaaaaaaaa!" Mitch drawled out frustratingly but I turned her towards the couch and bent her body. I pulled her shorts down and made her legs wide with my knee, I unbuttoned my jeans pulling them halfway, and pulled out a condom from my back pocket, rolled it on my hardened d**k, and without a warning thrusted inside Mitch's wet core. We both groaned at the feel of each other, I stopped for a second, and my traitor body and mind went towards the moments with Fay when I first thrusted into her and the feeling and warmth I got from her are missing now.

Mitch's thrusting back broke my thoughts making me feel like the biggest jerk on the earth ever. I closed off my mind and focused on Mitch and started thrusting roughly in and out of her. Her moans and groans filled the living room and I know the neighbors can hear her and the slapping sound of our skin.

I held Mitch's hands and pulled her and her back was pressing against my chest and my hips were ruthlessly thrusting into her, punishing her, and at the same time giving her pleasure that made her legs and thighs shake.

My hand moved Mitch's front and my fingers find her c**t I started playing with it and I know she is so close to her climax but I stopped again making her groan.

I am punishing her in my way by not giving her a chance to climax and I want her to beg for it.

"Beg for it, Mitch! Until then I won't let you finish and if you cum without begging then you will not get this." I thrust hard to tell what she is not going to get if she doesn't beg.

"P..... Pleaseeeee Ezra.. aahhh." I smiled smugly knowing that she will do anything to keep this going. I returned my fingers to her c**t and started rubbing it and thrusting into her.

Her thighs started shaking and her moans grew louder and in no time she was shaking with her climax and chasing it by thrusting back. My thrusts get sloppy and the familiar tightening in the stomach and the tingling of my b***s indicated I am close to my climax with a last hard thrust I emptied into the condom breathing heavily.

It took 3-5 seconds to come back from it, I removed myself from Mitchell and pulled out the condom carefully to not spill anywhere, and tied it. I know where the washroom is because I was the one who gave this apartment to her.

I went to the washroom and flushed it, cleaned myself, and left. Mitchell is pulling her shorts up and turning towards me with a big grin and a sated look on her face. I have to talk to her about what she had told Faye but whatever it may be Faye doesn't have to react like that when she hears something from someone other than me.

I didn't utter a word and just walked towards the door. Mitchell and I are just fuck buddies and nothing more and she knows that too but sometimes she forgets that. I got what I came for and I am leaving to what I have to do. I smirked knowing what I am going to do with the traitor who is waiting for me in the basement of my office.

I closed the door behind me and unlocked my car to leave. Each second is making me feel guilty because after being with Faye I made out with Mitchell in their college's parking lot and now I fucked her. Mitchell is a sin I want to commit again and again and I don't care whoever gets hurt in the process. Fay is mine and will always be mine.