Freed: Fifty Shades Freed as told by Christian

Chapter 208

“Has she done something specific to upset you? I haven’t seen you drink like this in years.” Elena

sounds most disapproving. But I don’t give a fuck.

“How’s Isaac?” I ask, to move the focus to her lover and away from my wife. My marriage is none of her

business.

She half smiles and folds her arms. “Okay. I get it. You really don’t want to talk.” She pauses, and I

know she’s waiting for me to spill my guts. But my secrets are mine. Not hers.

“Isaac is fine,” she continues, finally. “Thank you for asking. In fact, we’re really good at the moment.” Content protected by Nôv/el(D)rama.Org.

She launches into a tale of their latest sexual escapade, but to what end, I don’t know. I half listen and

half let the wine carry me away.

“So, is it the business? Is that your issue?” she asks when I don’t react.

“No, it’s going great. I bought a shipyard.”

She nods, impressed, I think, and I refill both our glasses from the latest bottle, and give her a rundown

of what I’ve been doing at work: the solar-powered tablet, the fiber-optic business takeover,

Geolumara, and of course the shipyard.

“You’ve been busy.”

“Always.”

“So, you’re talkative about your business, but not your wife.”

“And?” Is this a problem?

“I knew you’d come back,” she whispers.

What?

“Why are you drinking so much?”

“Because I’m thirsty.” And I want to forget how I behaved two hours ago.

She regards me through half-closed eyes. “Thirsty?” she breathes. “How thirsty?” She leans in and

reaches over, taking my hand. I tense as her fingers slide under my palm, and beneath the cuffs of my

jacket and shirt. Her fingernails digging into my flesh over my pulse. “Maybe I could make you feel

better? I’m sure you miss it.” Her breath is stale, not sweet like Ana’s. Her hand tightens around my

wrist, and from nowhere the darkness circles my chest and starts spiraling into my throat. It’s a feeling I

haven’t experienced for a while, and now it’s back, amplified, echoing through my body and screaming

for release.

“What are you doing?” I squeeze the words out.

It’s tightening its hold on me.

Don’t touch me.

This was how it was.

Always.

Me fighting my fear as she laid her hands on me.

“Don’t touch me.” I withdraw my hand from hers.

She pales and frowns, her eyes on mine. “Isn’t this what you want?”

“No!”

“That’s not why you’re here?”

“No, Elena. No. I haven’t thought about you like that for years.” I shake my head, wondering how she

could have so badly misread my intentions, but my thoughts aren’t as clear as they should be. “I love

my wife,” I whisper.

Ana.

Elena studies me, her formerly pale cheeks reddening with wine or embarrassment or both. She frowns

and looks down at the table. “I’m sorry,” she mutters.

Apology number three.

My cup runneth over.

“I don’t know…what came over me.” She laughs—but her laughter is loud, forced. “I have to go.” She

gathers her purse. “Christian, I wish you and your wife well.” She stops and looks me squarely in the

eye. “I miss you, though. More than you know.”

“Good-bye, Elena.”

“The way you say that has a finality about it.”

I don’t answer her.

She nods. “It would be difficult. I get it. I’m glad you came to see me. I think we’ve cleared the air.”

Have we? Cleared the air about what? Us? There is no us.

“Good-bye, Mrs. Lincoln.” I know it’s the last time I’ll ever say these words to her.

She nods. “Good luck, Christian Grey.” She slides out of the booth. “It was good to see you. I hope

whatever it is that’s bothering you sorts itself out. I’m sure it will. If it’s about being a dad, you’ll do

great.” She tosses her sleek hair over her shoulder and exits the bar without a backward glance,

leaving me with a half-empty bottle of pinot noir and an uneasy feeling of guilt.

I want to go home.

To Ana.

Shit.

I put my head in my hands. Ana will be mad as hell when I get home.

Grabbing the bottle and my glass, I head toward the bar to settle my tab. There’s a stool free, so I sit

down and replenish my glass.

Waste not, want not.

I nurse my drink. Slowly.

Hell. I hate it when Ana’s mad at me. If I go home now, I may say something else I’ll regret. Besides,

I’ve had too much to drink, and I don’t think Ana’s ever seen me drunk. Of course, I’ve seen her drunk

—that first night I slept with her at The Heathman, and the night of her bachelorette party…

Her words float through my slow, intoxicated brain.

Are you going to punish me?

Punish you?

For getting so drunk. A punishment fuck. You can do anything you want to me.

Stop. Grey.

I wonder when she got pregnant.

On our honeymoon? In our bed? In the Red Room?

Fuck…

Junior.

We’ll need a fucking minivan.

Will he have Ana’s blue eyes? My temper? Shit. My glass is empty. I refill it, finishing the bottle.

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