Chapter 140
1 regretted it instantly. The moment the words left my lips, I knew I had made a mistake. The shork on firay’s face was horrifying, and the awkward silence that followed was unbearable. He mumered, trying to find the right words, and quickly attempted to brush it eff, but I could tell he was embarrassed. Imagine how I felt
1 I felt like I wanted to disappear, like the ground should open up and swallow me whole. I was mortified. Brax put down the bag of ice and knelt down next to me, his eyes filled with conceth
“Kira, are you okay?” he asked softly, his voice gentle and soothing
I nodded, still trying to process what had just happened. I dreaded the next words that were going to come out of his mouth. I knew he was going to pity me, and I couldn’t bear the thought of it.
“Kira, what’s going on?” Brax asked again, his voice filled with genuine concern.
I shook my head, unable to speak. I didn’t know what to say. I had made a fool of myself, and I didn’t know how to recover
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Brax put a hand on my shoulder, his touch warm and comforting. “Hey, it’s okay,” he said. “Whatever it is, it’s okay. You can tell me.
I looked up at him, my eyes welling up with tears. I felt so stupid, so embarrassed. I didn’t know how to face him.
“I’m
“Kira, please tell me what’s wrong,” Brax said, his voice urgent. T’m here for you. I want to help”
I took a deep breath and tried to speak, but the words caught in my throat. I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t face him. I couldn’t tell him that I was jealous of Mara. That I wanted to kill his brother,
Brax pulled me into a hug, his arms wrapping around me tightly. “It’s okay, Kira,” he whispered. “I’m here for you. You don’t have to go through this alone.”
I let him hold me, feeling a mix of emotions. I was embarrassed, but I was also grateful for his kindness. I didn’t deserve it, but he was giving it to me anyway.
As we sat there, I felt a sense of comfort wash over me. Brax wasn’t judging me. He wasn’t making me feel worse. He was just being there for me, and that meant everything.
Eventually, I pulled back and looked up at him. “I’m so sorry, Brax,” I said, my voice shaking. I don’t know what came over
Brax smiled and brushed a strand of hair out of my face. “You don’t have to apologize, Kira,” he said but I couldn’t shake off the feeling of embarrassment and confusion that lingered long after the awkward moment had passed. Brax was being kind. and understanding, but the fact that he hadn’t mentioned the proposal at all was still bothering me. I had asked him to marry me, and I had regretted it instantly, but he had asked me first not so long ago. Why wasn’t he saying anything about it
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I felt like I had made a fool of myself, and I couldn’t help but wonder if Brax had lost interest in me. Had he changed his mind about us? Did he like someone else now? Mara’s face popped into my head, and I felt a pang of jealousy. No, it couldn’t be. She was his brother’s wife, after all. He couldn’t possibly have feelings for her. They hated each other.
They almost killed each other.
But why wasn’t he saying anything about the proposal? Why was he avoiding the topic altogether? I felt like I was going crazy, trying to read between the lines and figure out what was going on in Brax’s mind. I replayed our past conversations, trying to remember if there was something I had missed. Had he hinted at having second thoughts? Had I misinterpreted his feelings entirely?
“Brax, can I ask you something?” I said finally, trying to sound casual despite the chaos brewing inside me.
“Of course, Kira,” he replied, looking at me with concern etched on his face. “What’s on your mind?”
I took a deep breath before speaking, trying to choose my words carefully. “You asked me to marry you not so long ago. And 1…I asked you just now. But you haven’t said anything about it. Have you changed your mind?” I felt so shameless.
Brax looked at me, his expression softening. He seemed to be choosing his words carefully, and I could sense a hint of hesitation in his voice. “Kira. L…I don’t know what to say. I care about you deeply, but I think we need to talk about this later. okay?”
I felt so much confusion. What did he mean? Why couldn’t he talk about it now? Was he trying to let me down gently? I nodded reluctantly, feeling like I was left with more questions than answers.
I sat alone in the room, my mind drowning me in depression. Heax had left without saying a word about the proposal, and I couldn’t help but feel like I’d lost my chance with him. But that was only the beginning of my problems.
Aston’s face appeared in my mind, his cruel smile etched in my memory. He had hit me, and I could still feel the sting of his hand on my cheek. And then there was Mara, pregnant with his child. The thought made my stomach turn.
“Aston’s going to marry Mara,” I said aloud, the words tasting bitter in my mouth. “And I’m still just a slave.”
I thought back to all the times I’d tried to get Aston’s attention, all the times I’d hoped he would see me as more than just a se***nt. But it had all been for nothing.
“Kira, you’re so foolish,” I told myself, shaking my head. “You chased after Aston, and look where it got you. Nowhere
I stood up
and walked over to the window, staring out at the hills below and wishing I died there somewhere instead of getting trapped here.
Just then, I heard a knock at the door. It was Brax
“Kira, can I talk to you?” he asked, his voice soft.
I nodded, wiping away my tears. “What is it, Brax?”
“I know things have been tough lately,” he said, his eyes filled with concern. “But I want you to know that I’m here for you. care about you, Kira.” A
“You don’t see me as a partner, do you?” I asked, my voice barely above a whisper.
Brax looked away, his expression guilty. “L…I don’t know, Kira. I care about you, but I don’t know if I can ever see you in that way again.”
I nodded, feeling a lump form in my throat. “I understand,” I said, my voice cracking.
Brax turned to leave, but I stopped him. “Brax, wait,” I said, my voice urgent. “Can I ask you something? Fjust couldn’t accept it.
“Of course, Kira,” he replied, turning back to me.
“Why did you ask me to marry you in the first place?” I asked, my curiosity getting the better of me.
Brax sighed, his expression conflicted. “I don’t know, Kira. I guess I loved you and I’m a little hurt that you only think of me as your way out of here.
1 felt a sting from his words, but I knew he was telling the truth had been alone, and he had tried to help. But now, I was more alone than ever.
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“I’m sorry.” I said, my voice barely above a whisper. “I really am. He looked pained and I felt so guilty and regretful. If I was going to do it. I should have done it faster and gotten out of her while he was still interested.
1 lay in bed, my body wracked with sobs. I had never felt more desperate in my entire life than I did in that moment. The thought of Brax not wanting me, of him not even considering in as a romantic interest, was too much to bear.
I cried myself to sleep, refusing to come out of my room the next day. I couldn’t face anyone, couldn’t bear the thought of seeing Brax and knowing that he didn’t want me.All text © NôvelD(r)a'ma.Org.
The day that followed was no different. I stayed in bed, my eyes fed and pully from crying. I didn’t eat, didn’t drink. I just lay there, feeling sorry for myself.
But what really hit the nail in the head, what really made me realize that Brax wasn’t kidding about not wanting me, was him not even coming to check up on me. Not once. Not even to see if I was okay.
I thought back to all the times he had come to my room, all the times he had talked to me and listened to me. But now, nothing. Silence.
I felt like I was dying inside, like a part of me was slowly withering away.
“Kira, you need to get out of bed,” I told myself, trying to sound stern. “You can’t just lie here forever.”
But I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I couldn’t bring myself to face the world, to face Brax. To face Aston and Mara!
I thought about all the things I had done wrong, all the things I could have done differently, I thought about how I should put more effort into loving Brax than getting Aston’s c** down my throat. I felt so f**g dirty.
F**k!
Why did I choose love like I could afford such a luxury?