Bellissima

Bella’s POV

I don’t want this to be real. It’s unbearable. My whole life was a lie.

I started seeing hope of truth in Alex but he did the same. Everything inside me broke.

Why people hate me, why do they always deceive me, why the abandon me? Am i that unlucky.

My mind drifted back to the moment where Valentino met me.

Valentino, My real father.

“I don’t trust you… Why would I trust you?”

I asked when he said that he is my real father.

My already heavy head started throbbing by his words. I am his daughter, is this even possible? I had no idea how to react on it.

He cleared my doubts by showing me DNA tests and pictures of him and my mother. There is no way to deny that my mother was with him. Pictures says it all.

It wasn’t coincidence that My mother’s name and Valentino’s daughter’s name was same, Amanda.

“Why are you telling me this now”

I asked refusing to cry. Why life is throwing one after another thing at me for which i am not ready.

He eyes softened but hesitancy was in his posture, he is still judging my reaction. He must have thought i will accept him with open arms. I am sorry, i can’t… Not before i am aware of the whole story.

“Because I was scared that you will hate me…”

He replied in voice of full regret.

“I didn’t want you to hate me but i was proud that you are brave so I offered you money instead… So you can live your life happily… But i never thought that You will fall for Alexander…”

“You never cared before… My whole life I was leaving with that monster… You were nowhere. Then why you suddenly want to make me your daughter…”

I don’t know whom to trust. This regret can be deceiving.

“Because I promised your mother that I will not interfere in her life…”

He said.

“I had just succeeded my father in Mafia… I was in America when I met your mother… Slowly we fell in love but she had no idea that i am mafia, i kept it secret not wanting to loose her. But she found out. She put forward the condition that if i want her then i have to leave mafia which wasn’t possible. My father would have kill both of us… We parted our ways, but she was always on my mind… I could look at any other girl… But it was different for her, she moved on. She got married had her first child…”

I was not sure if I should really believe him. Can man like him really love someone like this, but Valentino haven’t married anyone else. Amanda was his only daughter.

“After one year I met your mother again when i was on business meeting… May be i was wrong, she wasn’t moved on. She still had feelings for me… We couldn’t control our feelings but even after that she pushed me away… I came back to Italy after that just to know that she is pregnant again, i don’t know why but i was hundred percent sure that it’s my child… I contacted her again and she couldn’t hide it from me… I wanted my child back, it was symbol of our love…”

Here he was fighting for his babies and Look at Alex. My heart clenched in pain.

“Amanda refused to give me child but i didn’t stop. When i reached at hospital i saw two baby girls… That was my first introduction to gentleness… I fell in love again with my daughters… But Amanda wasn’t ready to give you and your sister to me… Leaving her forever without my children was impossible but i couldn’t win against her tears… So i took one child with me… She agreed with the condition that i will not come back for you… I agreed thinking atleast one of my Angel is with me…”

He finished as tear slipped from his tired eyes.

“What do you want now?”

I don’t want to trust anyone. My mind was still screaming at me to run back to Alex. Has he influenced me so much?

“I don’t want you to marry Alexander”

He said and I closed my eyes. I knew it.

“I know… I know…”

He continued with little panic in his eyes.

“I know you think i hate Them because they killed Amanda, i want to ruin him… Yes, i want too but i am not doing it for that… It’s because I care for you… Amanda got killed because she was deceiving Alexander and i had no idea about it… I couldn’t save her but i want to save you. I can’t loose my both daughters…”

“He won’t kill me”

I said. I know he won’t.

“I know but have you realized that he wants to control you… It runs in their family… I was stupid to give Amanda to them. I still blame myself, she would have been alive now…”

His face twisted in pain.

“Alexander’s grandfather kidnapped his wife… Massimo did the same… His brother Dominick did the same, you yourself has witnessed it. You saw how he treated her. He forced her… Alexander kidnapped you too… Those men are not good. You will not get freedom, you have to fight for it on every step. He will control your breathing…”

He gently hold my hand.

“Bella… If you think mafia’s are meant to be like this then they are manipulating you my child… I was mafia too but i never forced your mother to be mine. You think i couldn’t have kidnapped her, i could have done that and eventually she would have agreed to stay with me but i respected her decision and choice… I couldn’t force her… Men can change for their woman, and if they really love then they will never try to control… You are smart, please save yourself…”

Is Alex trying to control my life?

Answer is yes!

I can’t go out without him. My education, my career, my child… He wants to control everything.

“Why would he hide it from me, that you are my father?”

I asked. What can be the reason behind it.

“Because he wants to control you… He could never control Amanda because she had my support… He didn’t want it to happen again… It was easy for him because you had no one to help you… He wanted you to be alone so he can manipulate you. That’s why he separated you from Jasmine, so he will the only person in your life.”

He said and his each word hit my mind and heart at the same time.

No matter how much i want to ignore it but i can’t deny that there is possibility.

“Save yourself… I am not saying choose me, come back to me… It’s your choice because i can’t expect you to forgive me so easily… But i will always be there to help you… You are my daughter and i love you…”

More tears slipped from his eyes.

Now when I think about it, Valentino was never rude to me. Now i understood why he offered me so much money. Now i could understand the meaning behind his words.

‘Were you happy in that house?’

‘do they take care of you?’

“I should go back…”

I said and his face turned worried.

“I am always there for you Bella… Remember you have a father…”

He kissed my knuckles and let me go.

After so many lies and betrayals i couldn’t trust Valentino. So i did what I never thought i would do.

I called my mother after coming back home.

She wasn’t expecting my call but could notice the pain and sadness in her voice when she heard my voice. There wasn’t disappointment or anger which i expected.

“Do you know who Valentino is?”

I asked, straight to the point because as much i hate her husband, i hate her equally. Even if she fought for me with Valentino, she didn’t give me the love i deserved neither she stopped her so called husband from abusing me.

“You met him?”

She breathed out in disbelief.

“Answer me… Do you know him?… He said he is my father… I guess there is nothing to hide anything and at least i can expect an honest answer from you… At least i deserve that…”

I know i am being rude but i can’t help it. This woman has given me nothing not even a word of care.

“He is your father”

I heard her sobbing answer.

“Bella i am sorry… I love you… Please forgive me.”

“You never Loved me…”

I said nonchalant.

“I do… It’s just i couldn’t look at you because you always reminded of my lost love… It was making me regret for not choosing him over my morals…”

She cried.

“Great”

I don’t know how my voice got so cold.

“I hope you had fun while regretting your missed opportunity… It must have been hard for you to look at your own daughter whom you kept after fighting with the man who wanted to love his daughters… You kept her for yourself so you can regret and ignore her while you were leaving with your husband and making child after child… I understand it must have been very hard…”

My mocking tone must have broke her heart but She has broken me in very young age. Before she says something else or before i break the ice, i disconnected the call.

“Bella i can explain”

My eyes snapped towards Alex who is sitting in front of me at the table.

“Why did you hide it from me?”

I asked.

My heart is filling so heavy, it feels like i am on verge of loosing everything. There is that weird feeling in my gut.

“Because there was no need…”

He replied and something snapped in my head.

“Valentino doesn’t deserve you… Selfish man like him___”

“You decided it by yourself”

I interrupted him.

“You decided what’s right for me without consulting to me…”

He looked at him with parted lips, Lack of words to answer my question, confused, shocked.

“Bella…”

“Or you thought you can’t control me after that…”

I asked and his eyebrows furrowed in disbelief.

“I control you?”

He mumbled in disbelief as hurt flashed on his face.

“Yes you do and you know it…”

I said keeping my face brave and strong.

He closed his eyes while his fingers went through his styled hair.

“I know you are angry… With this baby thing and now this but i had no sick intentions behind it… I don’t know who filled your mind with this crap…”

“You wouldn’t have hide it from me… You knew from the beginning… And i don’t care what you think about this baby… I don’t want your opinion because i am keeping this baby…”

I put my point strongly.

“Fine! Keep it if you want…”

He groaned.

“Are you listening to yourself right now Alex?…”

I frowned.

“Fine! Keep it if you want… Is this you have to say to me right now… Your irritate and annoyance is dripping from your words… The way you are addressing our child is shocking, it shows how much you want this baby or much you respect my decision… It’s okay if you don’t want it… I want it, it’s my choice so i will be responsible for it… You don’t want to become a father, fine with me…”

“Bella i didn’t mean it”

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“I am feeling sick… Let’s stop it here for now…”

I stood up as my stomach got sick.

“Bella sit down… We are not done…”

He gritted when i stood up to leave.

“We should hold our conversation now… If possible then marriage too…”

I can’t explain how my heart broke when i said this but i had to. I have to take stand for myself.

I heard him coming behind me when i started leaving the place. I don’t know why I am running but i don’t want to show him how much weak he makes me. That i will start crying if he looks at my eyes one more time me.

I can’t, i can’t do this.

“Bella don’t run… It’s not safe for the ba___”

His words was interrupted by loud thud of table and knocking of glasses and plates.

“BELLA!”

His scream was last thing i heard before falling on the floor in immense pain.

I tried to look up but could only saw the blurry sharp edge of the table which collided with my stomach.

Something trickled down from my thigh. It happened so fast and sudden that i couldn’t understand what’s happening.

It was just pain in my belly and red liquid around my feet.

“Bella”

Alex’s strong hands hold me before everything went blank.