Chapter 12
Flashback Continues…
Niccolo Point of View
I’m in a dilemma!
I was in a dilemma from the past months of staying away from Bella. Why am I keeping my distance from her?
Is it because I agree to what Vald said about family name?
Or was it because I don’t want either of us hurt?
If I was even slightly affected by Vald’s words, then does it make my love any less for Bella?
The agony of not being able to talk to her touch her was almost unbearable. The only thread that kept me sane was looking at her from far. Though I did not meet her show my face to her, I always kept an eye on her, watching her from afar.
I watched her crumble down emotionally and cry in arms of her dark room. It hurt me infinitely knowing that I was the reason for her current state.
I knew if I left her unattended in the House, then the supervisor lady she is so scared of will leave no stone to torture her, so I even went as far as to talking to one of my friends who is a part of House’s authority chain and asked him to put Rick as the supervisor for the wing Bella is now staying in.
If it is in my hands, then I would kill the lady supervisor brutally but the House’ authorities are quite protective of their staff so they sent her away from House at my request.
I wish she pay for all the wrongs she did without me getting involved. If I get involved, then she would have to pay them with her dear life.
I caressed Bella’s face which frowned in pain even in her sleep. What probed me to leave such a treasure? I should’ve stayed with her not minding about any other things.
She has become so thin and pale that the once chubby cheeks has gone flat. Her once pink flush skin is now pale white with lack of blood and energy.
“Oh Bella, what have you done to yourself!” I mumbled to myself, placing a kiss on the side of her sleeping head.
When I got the message from Rick about Bella going out to a mall with another girl, I immediately put hold on all the important meetings and paperwork and rushed to the store only to look at her from far.
I saw how disturbed and diverted she looked. It was as if she has no interest in anything, not even on herself. While her friend was going around the store shopping happily, she stood outside with a long face. And when her eyes locked mine which caused her to faint down, that was my last straw. I rushed towards her and took her away from her male guard telling him he would take care of her as her master.
It pierced my heart when her eyes looked so hollow and lifeless. That was when I understood, my Bella was hurting more than me.
It made me scold myself for taking a selfish decision. I wanted to slap myself for putting her in such sensitive situation.
Love is such a harsh feeling; it gives you pleasure like owning the whole world and on the other hand it will also not allow you to enjoy it.
Love is cruel!
“Huh… Please” I was brought back from my self-condemning thoughts by the sweet voice I was desperate to hear.
I looked down at the petite woman whom I love so much thrashing on the bed probably due to nightmare. I held her body down with mine, soothing her with whispers of comfort.
“Ssh, calm down Bella.” I whispered, patting her head softly. “Yes, calm down. I’m here.” I assured her, pulling her into my arms.
I lay down on the bed beside her and hugged her tightly to bring her out of whatever nightmare she is having. “Please Niccolo… stop.” I stiffened when she cried out in her dream.
“Don’t go away from me, Nicco. I… I” She sobbed again pulling my shirt in tight grip. “I – I love…” She heaved and exclaimed. She was shaking violently and her closed eyes are trembling in dread.
I love?
Wh… at?
“Bella, its okay you are safe. Calm down, sweetheart.” I tried to wake her up. Uh huh, what is happening to her?
“Nicco, I –love you. Please don’t leave me.” The confession of feelings I was dying to hear from her is finally out but through her nightmare.
I stiffened when I heard her confession not knowing if I should be dancing in joy or be ashamed and disappointed on myself for being the reason for her pain.
She loves me. She loves me the same way I love her and I am so very happy about it.
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“Yes, Bella. I’m here and I love you too. I am not leaving you alone again. Wake up now, sweetheart.” I shook her body to wake her up from the horrible dream she was having.
Sweat trifled down when she did not wake up even after shaking her vehemently, she continued to repeat the words ‘don’t leave me I love you’ over and over.
Ah ha, what should I do to calm her down!
I’m sorry Bella. I am very sorry for making you this way.
I didn’t know what to do and how to stop her trembling body. I am desperate to bring back my Bella back to me, back to reality. After failing several times in calming her down, in the moment of fear, I plunged my lips on her involuntarily.
I pressed my lips on hers and pinned her trashing body down on the bed to let her feel me. I did not move my lips but just pressed them on her soft wet ones sighing in despair.
I wanted her first kiss to be special. I always imagined to make her first kiss an forgettable memory by giving her flowers and her favorite chocolates. I always dreamed of eating chocolate from her mouth, licking the sweet cream from her lips.
But this is not even the least of the delightful imaginations I had.
Her body slowly started to settle down and the furious quivers stopped. I sighed in her mouth and lifted my head up to wake her but I was pulled down by my shirt and was attacked by her lips. I was surprised at her sudden attack but it immediately left when I saw my Bella slowly open her eyes.
“Let – me” She heaved harshly and took deep breaths, “Let me kiss you… in my dream, Nicco.” She gulped and hiccupped.
“Nicco, I love you. Please let me kiss you even if it is in my dream.” She talked and I can tell she is still under the effect of hallucination.
A tear dropped from my eye when I heard her pleading voice. I was stumped by her actions and her words. I wanted to cry, beg her to come back to reality and give her a huge iron rod to hit me.
Such a fool I am! No wonder she has gone into depression. Guilt and despair stabbed me, swirling in lot of emotions.
“I love you too, Bella.” I whispered back and opened my mouth to take her lips inside mine. I moved my lips feverishly, in a hurry. I tilted her head to the side and explored the inside of her mouth inch by inch expertly, tasting her natural sweetness.
Bella opened her eyes slowly again but this time, they are getting focused.
Yes, come back to me, Sweetheart. I here, before you. Come back to me.
“Nicco!” She sighed in my mouth. The slight smile that is forming on her lips is enough assurance to me that she is finally here, in my arms.
I went back to kissing her again this time softly and slowly, studying every inch of the wet sweetness. “I missed you, Bella.” I mumbled miserably.
Bella pulled away and looked longingly at me for a good few minutes without talking. Her eyes brimmed with tears revealing thousands of virgin emotions clashing at the same time. She brought her shivering hands and cupped my face, caressing her fingertips on my rugged skin.
“You are really here, Nicco. Are you here for me?” She laughed and cried at the same time. It broke me from inside when she started laughing out loud, delight clearly visible in her bright eyes.
“Nicco is here. Nicco came for me.” She laughed and mumbled to herself. I gulped down the pain looking at the beautiful Bella suffering the way.
I’m so sorry Bella.
“Yes Bella, your Nicco is here for you. See, I’m with you.” I held her chin, raised her head and kissed her long and hard again.
“I missed you so much. I felt like I died many times. It was so painful, Nicco.” She complained like a child and cried, hugging my head to her chest. “You will not leave me again.” She declared hugging me tighter if possible.
“Yes I will never leave you again.” I said and pulled away from her. I held her face in my hands and looked intensely at her. “Listen to me carefully Bella, Today, I promise you to never leave you or go away from you again. If being with you is a problem then I am ready to face but I learnt my lesson, leaving you not an option. I will always stick with you and will love you more every day. I promise you to give you all my love. I will never let me be the reason for your tears.” I vowed her sealing it with yet another kiss.
Yes, if people have difficulty with watching a Russo love an escort, then so be it. She will never be hurt because of me since I decided to never leave her.
She will be my only woman and I will be hers unconditionally.
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